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An Average Man Traveling the Tigris and Euphrates with a Heart.

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The Ineligible

I wrote this today, regardless of party and what I was drawn to and what needs to be clarified for the sake of the country. I write it as it is handwritten above knowing that I am not a candidate, I have not been approached to be one, more will I trade 4 years of ridicule for a life-time of work already built and stolen knowingly since 2018.

“I was thinking of being passed over today at the gym. The term applies to positions with thoughts of my father’s pass over in the Coast Guard when we lived in Puerto Rico. Why is one passed over and how does it apply on the armed forces sides and in everyday work places?

The term denotes a refuse to promote, transfer or elevate while those under you rise in pay grade. According to HRC.army.mil the question and answer is quoted as,

“Why is an officer passed over promotion?

A Soldier is normally passed over for promotion because he/she is not educationally qualified or because he or she doesn't have enough OERs in the board file for the board to make an informed decision about the officer's potential. Occasionally, an officer may also be passed over because the OERs in the file do not meet promotion standards or because of adverse information in the file (flag, disciplinary, etc...). It is also possible there was a material error in the "My Board File" that caused the officer to not be selected. If the Soldier suspects the board members were unable to consider critical documents, the Soldier may request review by a special consideration or standby board. Call Promotions Branch for more information if applicable.’ (accessed 11:51 AM)

I jump now over to the 22nd Amendment.

“Section 1. No person shall be elected to the office of the President more than twice, and no person who has held the office of President, or acted as President, for more than two years of a term to which some other person was elected President shall be elected to the office of the President more than once. But this Article shall not apply to any person holding the office of President when this Article was proposed by the Congress, and shall not prevent any person who may be holding the office of President, or acting as President, during the term within which this Article becomes operative from holding the office of President or acting as President during the remainder of such term.” (accessed 9/19/2022)

Now, based on the 22nd Amendment alone, nor prior president who loses an election can be eligible to run for a non-consecutive term. That is clearly defined in the language of the first sentence. The creation of the 22nd Amendment came from the 4-terms of Franklin D. Roosevelt. As the language was created to prevent the accumulation of power, it is further strengthened in 2022 by the expansion of the United States & through the technological/propritery aspects of security. As proven inside knowledge can lead to outside advantage while undermining successors in order to regain position and regain power which goes against American principles.

The ineligible statue after an election loss denotes a military & civilian ‘Pass Over’ of the Commander-in-Chief based on performance, votes and weighed decisions of the general public and strengthened more than likely privately on the military side. Questions remain on the eligibility of the family of the unelected president based on security purposes that could be looked at individually and is in reference to the core family to hold-back/prevent grudges against another president (which goes against American values of leadership) as already have protection in retirement as. ‘Former First Family’ and afforded rights & protection not provided to other citizens in their status.

The question is intention and purpose but does not rule out. The security and intel is the question.

I am unsure of the ‘Pass Over’ aspects the higher the ranks on the military side but existing law denotes severity and importance of integrity for a one-pass retirement in this regard. Between the Military and 22nd Amendment side, it becomes essential to the aspect of not dividing the country with intelligence and security provided to no one else but a sitting president where one can not make false promises of privilege that they no longer have once the end of term is complete. I.e. false executive orders and privileges. (Pardon promises contingent of an election win. Those promise denote a degrade of law and order to privilege and promise.)

I imagine if strengthen by a 3rd realm of thought would be to look at existing corporations and the handling of higher executives & CEOs who I imagine have non-compete clauses at the end of their term in position (that still is short-lived vs. ownership). I’ll research more.

-Philip A. Bonneau

2/19/2022

Philip Arthur Bonneau

(As a person of 4 years known victimization, anything above came from generations prior to prevent what has happened while adding on the aspect of what the digital world and security has brought on. To hold any office is to represent all people and values. Whatever my story…this is in the constitution and amendments of prevention that makes anyone who loses a term ineligible for re-election based on their privilege of knowledge and proof of character. )

Monday 09.19.22
Posted by Philip Bonneau
 

A Tribute to Phredd Allen. 1966—2022

To the Tune of Fred Astaire ’They Can’t Take that Away from Me' after hearing of my brother’s passing this week.

‘ ‘ Philip A. Bonneau 2011

Image pulled from The Atlanta Bucks Facebook Page

I first met Phredd when I joined the Atlanta Bucks back in 2008. The Rugby team is all inclusive of all sexualities to unite on the spirit of Rugby, sportsmanlike conduct and brotherhood of waring teams coming together at the end in 3rd half. The team is a brotherhood where we pick each other up and we continually go into the wellness of the community in a series of personal interests to bring the spirit of Rugby into the world.

As I couldn’t even afford cleats, they were provided to me by my brothers and I was given a group to be a part of. Although I never could had gone to the traveling Rugby matches, overseas my heart was always with them when they did. I was a flanker in the game of combat soccer where you run the field and don’t stop for just about anything.

Phredd, an Old Boy at the time of his passing, was instrumental to the heart of the team. In his day job(night job) he worked security watching out for people and I fondly remember him going down memory lane in the end of this phase of his life giving the world a piece of his history and connections to bring people together.

The Atlanta Bucks major annual fundraiser is, “The Purple Dress Run’. A Charity event so that the Bucks can survive another season and be able to attend the World connection of Teams in Worldly brotherhood and battle. The fun-free spirit of even that event ends with drinks and community building. Beware the lemons that drop in your cup in 3rd half. If they get you, you have to drink your drink. I suppose we all have a first try Zulu story. I don’t know Phredd’s but I know mine and it is what is. This is about the comfortability of your surroundings and those that lift you up when others try to take control of the ball.

The Black Swan II. Philip A. Bonneau June 10, 2011 From Beautiful Layered Lies (Artwork Held in Private Collection) Reworked for my Master’s Submission to the Photography Program at SCAD

Phredd Took a chance on me when I was first starting photography and trying to branch into the gallery fine art setting with my works. In the beginning he was one of the first to contribute to a photo session to support me in raising money in the exploration prior to my first gallery showing. The shoot involved going around my neighborhood of Adair Park and photographing based on early concepts and the discovery of abandoned building and what they represent in made-up history and in real history. The image above from an old abandoned recycling center that I playfully dubbed then as ‘Pippy’s Playhouse’. Since then it has been torn down, but the land remains in mystery and surprises of what was found there and what was picked up and transformed.

For Phredd as the Black Swan, it was incorporated from Swan Lake where natural lighting of the situation took over. I had to climb up broken stairs to get to the location to photograph him, but the spotlight was present from the ceiling glass of broken ceilings. Phredd taught myself comfort in individuality and how to be myself. An ‘I Give a Buck’ mentality of being able to be who you want to be. To watch an adult man play the character while actually dancing and enjoying his environment was one of the most amazing things to see from that photo shoot. It is the same location that was used multiple times for multiple photoshoots before events darkened the space and it was never to be returned to until yers later after it was torn down to where things still occur from memory and found objects. What is the difference between a kilt and a skirt?

The Atlanta Armorettes.

Phredd in his computer building was also An Armorette. The Armorettes also are community builders and fundraisers. Ask them about their Easter Bonnets and bringing together the community in the spirit of Camp and the tradition of Theatre of men in drag. As Phreddtasia, it was always important that the low-brow look was important to him and where the discount is in the disguise of what is in your heart.

When duty called and time for an upgrade in my works and asking a community for help back in 2013, Phredd rose to the challenge in support and was right there with me and so many others, holding up a sign nakedly for support. The kindness of friends and strangers on hopes and dreams and where things could go was always classic Phredd as well as those who played with me in my work.

From my successfully funded commit building of 2012. Kickstarter

The humor is always important to mask the seriousness of things and it is an amazing aspect that Phredd was completely supportive of my work and often later in life still played tribute with brotherhood love during my ’Starving Artist’ series. It takes a powerful person to be comfortable in their own skin knowing how the world reacts one way or another. It was always an honor to me that friend Gave a Buck and Held up a sign just like others would to be stronger in representation and allowing for the building of a world that addresses many things but brings comfort back to those who have been bullied and made awkward. An open world of acceptance to individuality.

‘Ursula Minor’ November 21, 2012, Philip A. Bonneau

'Ursula Minor' from The Heroes+Villains series. First debuted at Heroes+Villains #3 funded by a community of strangers and friends to bring a community together that also gave a buck about the message and importance of acceptance and individuality regardless of sexuality. The opening wasn’t exactly a sexual event but whatever happened after with people is their business. You would be amazed at the test of concept of all these characters on display and having a child not care one bit about the story behind the persons and completey enthralled with the connection of familiarity to what they have already been introducedtoo. Adults got the humor and others found the seriousness in some from their own life experiences.

The spirt of drag came from theatre in non-inclusive aspects of where women were not allowed at first and were eventually allowed in overtime into inclusiveness. There are Shakespearian movies available that went onto best pictures available to document that and start history lessons of bridging towards inclusiveness. My Ursula Minor (never referred to as that prior) is understanding the Little Guy and where we dip our interests in for sustainability and storytelling. Inspired also by Divine, it is the recognition of theatrics and inclusiveness into Renaissances. In what was my first dress designed and created. Phredd has a blast taking on a character that incorporated who he was, what he was representing and owning every aspect of that into his persona of Phreddastia. The things we do with trashbags, bubble wrap and some paints. Low-Brow because that is what was available financially, Low-Brow by choice later in capturing imagination of what you can do with what you have around you. We all start somewhere and grow from there in experience and interests. Always something hidden to be found and never fully spelled out.

Black Swan Revisited. Image from June 10, 2011. Reworked 2018. Philip A. Bonneau from ‘Laying Lies to Rest’

Phredd was always a supporter and when I returned back to Atlanta in 2018, I re-evaluated ‘Beautiful Layered Lies’ in a different aspect of ‘Laying Lies to Rest’. A stretch with once again support from Phredd in revisiting of topics of compassion, process and understanding. The beauty of brotherhood is probably why I love the term I’ve coined ’Sistem to Broments’. It is all the same think of being inclusive to one another and building in comfortability that doesn’t always necessitate full comfortability into areas of division. I’m still working out a solution to not put all the work on the Sistem while Broments occur. Eventually we can come together on terminality of common inclusivity and getting to know people.

‘ ‘ Philip A. Bonneau 2011

Although Phredd is no longer with us physically as of this week, he remains in our hearts. In the image above from that first location revisited a few times with Phredd is a moment of appreciation of life and death. A butterfly that passed away and was never to noticed unlessed looked for was found. Compassion in gentle touch of giving life to something that has already passed to be appreciated and lives on. The picture above now the same to me of Butterfly to Phredd and I to Phredd and the butterfly in a building that is already torn down from its abandonment and disregard. The last video I saw of Phredd was him revisiting his old school and documenting the same story of abadonment from time weathered and worn ready to be picked up and revitalized and loved.

In what all we have of the world, Phredd was a stanch supporter to building community and their stories. Even in my ‘Day of Stonewall Past’ editorial and hinted at the above Ursula Minor image, support for breast cancer awareness. I suppose we can learn a great deal from Phreddtasia and Phredd Allen. He was never a villain to me ever although he played one once who might of just not been socially accepted and cast out and away. Imagine a completely different character than who you are now based any one single moment in your life and find out how positive infuence of acceptance can change the world for you in a heartbeat that stretches to the sound of your own life’s rhythms and tunes.

Lessons from Phredd that can only do the one thing we all try to do. Bridge stories and communities through connection. With sass at times, humors in others, seriousness in message and a gentle touch of vulnerability to open up when every reason in this world to be guarded from others.

Love you Phredd. U are honored in the most amazing way in my heart.

-Philip Arthur Bonneau

Editor’s Note 9/19/2022

Phredd Allen passed away September 10, 2022 Obituary

Original Note Published 9/17/2022

Saturday 09.17.22
Posted by Philip Bonneau
 

Nichelle Nichols and Pat Carroll: Our Influences

They say that others have obituaries in the wings for when someone passes on.


A preemptive measure of what could be for what would be headlines… a would be scenarios where intel says one thing or another. At what point is it industry standard to write someone’s life as if they had passed?


It is understood that as we get older that our time will come. I imagine the conflict comes at any age from our vital 20s, 30s, to understanding 40s and even then still finding new ground. Our own voice will be eventually lost a conversation that has translated prior to the internet to questions of what gets left on a keyboard stroke for others to question. (I still contend I don’t delete things in the regards of 8 and questions there.) Eventually we are translated one way ore another and taken in what we represented to become something different for either original intention or for what others believe the message to be.


I imagine it is either a joy or a curse to see things go one way or the other, but always a shining attribute to throw yourself out there in any regard at any capacity and in any adversary.


Whatever the joy/remorse, it has grown to be completely contingent on the scenario, the influence and the corporation in ever throwing yourself out there and meaning something. The rest is where you could steer things, where they steer things and where just human life takes us anyways.


There is a difference between the 60s and now and there is no blurred lines as well in that regard in the symbolism of American history and social history in the present. Common ground is always had and always understood in relatability of associations, safe spaces and subtle connections.


I wrote one of my models today about trying something different with my work when it comes to representing a living actor who became an icon vs. anything fictional in my works. It is important to me then and now to know that there is a solid difference between people who threw themselves out there in one role or another vs. fictional characters open for interpretation. I rarely touch that area knowing whoever I represent in that regard are more than the role of representation and never our full privilege to understand.


I have only done that so few times. I’ve done it in this shoot where I speak of Nichelle Nichols at the forefront followed by Leonard Nimoy and William Shatner in what was culturally relevant in bromances and mirrored worlds. The only other times I’ve dared to touch it around the same time frame is with Sigourney Weaver in her Alien series role (which I showcased in New York City) and Carrie Fisher (represented through my mother) a day before her passing which scares the shit out of me in that connection. She is the only person of fame I have ever photographed as herself and who she shined in every capacity in. There is a strong standard of the utmost respect in that regard knowing she threw herself out there in faults afterwards while secretly fixing faults of scripts. Very crafty she was…never know where that input went in one way or another. I admire that she was honest and made light in seriousness. I guess that makes her the official first female Doctor Who knowing her British connection.


When it comes to people who are alive and play a part I respect that they gave something to the world but we are never entitled to their lives even though we know their names. We connected even if it was indirectly. Never is it an ownership to their lives as much as it is an acknowledgement that they influenced ours. I understand the sacrifice and the awesomeness of throwing yourself out there. I understand the vitriol and when others want to break you down in a way to not look at themselves. It is precarious there. It can be looked at as artist critique or could be taken very personal where I understand why most probably don’t look at the internet.


I’ve never been put in that situation before (I fondly remember a reddit thread that just showed aged and location) but for tonight I understand the bridge between Sigourney Weaver and Nichelle Nichols in roles and with an understanding as women in an industry. I understand “minorities” and those discounted one way or another through the ages. Between “Galaxy Quest” there is a bridge to “Star Trek” and always acknowledgement of wondering who designed this one way or another.


I wanted to approach my model today with a “Tell your story and I’ll tell mine” when it comes to an image. It is what I hold dear and is the most valuable thing I have to when digitally anything can be taken except for the life experience. My model was a personal friend and someone who was important to my life. All my Heroes+Villains were. I’ve never offered up those explanations  socially in any regard and understand considering the circumstances, it is the last thing standing between digital theft and artist integrity for me. Discount an image, the makeup, model whatever you want to do. They exist…they did it first and they were appreciated by someone who absolutely was looking at things beyond cover value. Models can tell their story, but it is mine that is locked up in fighting digital battles across the World Wide Web. That word aspect is very contingent in contemporary art. By nature they are brands and I’m actually fortunate to say 10-12 years later I was proven right in that regard. The story and marketing is more meaningful in that realm.


One of my favorite moments of my life is talking art history naked and on a budget one way or another. Perhaps dateable at the time but we shouldn’t go into dated references.


I keep switching back and forth between my life and Nichelle’s (if I was afforded to call her that). That is what happens with icons and that is what happens when people represent things that go beyond their life and takes strength to overcome or to succeed through.


I find it appropriate to ask that question to my model and give the answer in this regards to Nichelle Nichols and what she represents. My work discounted at first glance and taken as haphazard, lazy or just not up to industry standard before even looking at the background of what it is, where it has been and what it tries to represent.

Hi.

So…

My Uhura shoot….

Let me begin…

Between the two official images I was gifted the home of other people who were hardcore Star Trek collectors to the point that they spent their money to make their “man-cave” the same as the bridge of the Enterprise.

The same owners were the ones that ended up hosting my “Ugly Simple Truths” exhibit and “Heroes+Villains: Lost+ Found” in Atlanta, GA. They provided a safe space and they provided their home to me for this photoshoot. The couple is denoted in Uhura tele-comming in the details of what happen on the Enterprise and what we do and do not say.

The images as they are were a part of my kickstarter funded “Heroes + Villains #3” where it was about reaching out and expanding in your environment as well as letting a garden grow that was nourished. Hundreds of people there and never a moment better than seeing kids connect with their heroes and villains before ever questioning the sexuality question knowing even that was played for an and illusion with the images.

Uhura to me was essential for that giant leap knowing what she represents. One of her crowning moments is always going to be the first interracial kiss televised on TV. That is strange for people to think of in this generation. Who would of thought that at one point “How dare one race kiss another?!”

Star Trek said one thing and that came in their “Mirror, Mirror” episode. It was the first time a televised interracial kiss ever occurred and came at a time where it was still unlawful to have a relationship in that regard. (I’m looking at you Supreme Court Rep. Clarence Thomas).

Where I wanted to transition it was into other mirrors at the time and what is, should be, would be, could be accepted. This was well before marriage equality and I did my part to make sure an industry leader was the first to support marriage equality the day it happened.

The audacity of an interracial kiss at the time. What abomination that was?! That is what the 60s were and that is the bridge between then and then when it comes to even begin to talk about love of someone of the same sex.

Conversations then of interracial marriage or attraction before going into same-sex attraction or even going back to what was going on in the 30s and 40s of straight up murder of people. Where do you want that conversation to go?

What television and movies did at the time was escapism. Still will be while also ringing you in on one thing or another that socially you need to deal with. The common thread is don’t fuck over people generally based on prejudice.

I refrain total disclosure to my images outside of this,

The strength of Nichelle Nichols is equal to the strength of George Takei in minorities trying to make it, made it and was accepted and make a difference. We can go to Scottish rite of the bridge to other realms to understand what was one of the most honoring achievements of my life to be recognized by any living artist in that capacity of what I was representing and understanding that was a first bridge connection.

It is important to respect those who pave the way for others and it is an honor to have those who have paved the way acknowledge me even at the time when my name was erased from what was presented.

In minority we stand together. In human understanding is perhaps the dream.

Those who paved the way have stories to tell one way or another. From Mexico to Japan and elsewhere in disregard and camps.

It was an honor to see those say it was my image and it was with the most amazing respect that George Takei took the time to respond to me saying “thank you” to him in what was amazing of his contribution of naming it “The Other Mirror, Mirror.”.

I think of the hardships either have had in their lives and what we were never exposed to or what they dared to challenge. I’m nothing in that regard, but I respect what it was then. Perhaps it is still there or perhaps it has evolved to other areas that become colorless in some regards while discontent exists.

I’ll love to add on if my model responds but for now this is the indirect collaboration of 4 people where all gave their lives to influence one way or another in the right direction.

In 2019 I had to give up my social media account because a company would not let me be or talk to me directly. With it I lost everything I worked for socially towards acceptance and understanding without them knowing I strove for a Heaven and wrote about it prior to coming back to ATL 2.0 where 3 years past to anything I knew then, guarded and protected in understanding of what the world is.

Does a phoenix mourn it’s past life?

It remembers it, but realizes in the social realm, one still existed and died in one capacity due to corporate invasions.

Where I remain is, I am still alive and still fighting what was impeded on then and what they thought they could get away with after my death or with my death.

There was another actress that passed tonight that should not be discounted in this regard…

Pat Carroll.

I’ve went through many Ursula images in my life. This was not the first one chosen. This is not the second one chosen. This was not the one in Days of Stonewall Past which promoted breast cancer awareness, but this is the one that was in my living room in Florida with all my other drag villain done in my fashion and standard prior to being picked up by the House of Ru in a different capacity.

Atlanta Commonality there. She gets me one way or anther and can show me the ropes of her tentacles ones way or another. A big difference with all the respect between realms knowing I sit my ass down with duct tape and watch accordingly in that regard.

To have another Carroll pass tonight is not a disregard in any aspect.

The connection is always in the Divine which was fully known then and acknowledged.

To be a part of a Renaissance is to be part of a new solution and not an old remedy. There is no ingenuity to the same thing played out one way or another. Especially in the take from the taken regard.

I’m aware what zoom entered into the arena. I’m well aware that there is nothing new in exploiting the shit out of someone discounted.

I can defer you to some old books that yet still have copyright issues now.

A trash bag of conversation in dark black-light settings.

To steal a voice is no longer to steal a generation…guess who read the user manual and by-laws to contracts of passion and impulse….

Monday 08.01.22
Posted by Philip Bonneau
 

I'm Not Going to "Let This Go".

Posted on Social Media yesterday. 7.26.27


Elsa 2016 has gone missing from my website and flickr account.

Where did she go?

In the on-going search for empowerment and individuality, I guess the physical copy from the book will have to do for now.

I never was compensated for that vacation my sister paid for to take me to the @icecastles_ and then composite an environment with about 15-20 images. Was not even properly compensated for most of my time there which isn't Disney's responsibility but has paved an icy path of cold shoulder behavior into myself.

Stories there of words behind closed doors on what happens when trying to each out and when privacy and alone time to figure things out gets invaded.

Either way someone needs to "Let it Go" or was that the end problem with Alfred Angelo and why I claim ownership rights on the final 3 years of Disney Fairy Tale weddings by Alfred Angelo due to exploration and non-compensation due to artist copyright and most harmed in that arena.

I wouldn't appropriate any visual of mine without consent corporately, but would love to talk about my castles being impeded on over the last 5 years.

A friendly gesture in the right direction.
Hello.

@disneyweddings @disney



I’ve added this image back to my collection and history in the 2016 collection as is. Each year was done the year before so 2015 was 2014, 2016 was 2015 and 2017 was a combination of 2016/17 due to very beneficial aspects in production for myself and for the brand as according to https://www.philipbonneau.com/disney-fairy-tale-weddings-by-alfred-angelo

At no point am I going to tolerate my life continually being erased by anyone who has a problem with my history, heritage and contributions to society either in solo or collaborative form of people I have met or the technology that we have grown accustomed to and take for granted.

I very much made my stances on what could had stopped before and I’ll do it again. When figuring things out, you have to know territories, boundaries and other people’s houses. A good book given to me prior by a good friend to read, “Boundaries: When to Say Yes, and When to Say No To Take Control Of Your Life. https://www.amazon.com/Boundaries-When-Take-Control-Your/dp/0310247454

How many references do you want Me to make? Give me 60 pages and I’ll give you a life-time to consider what was said.

Wednesday 07.27.22
Posted by Philip Bonneau
Comments: 2
 

Finding Charming Responses

No need to retype.

People live to destroy or build.

I'm a LEGO person myself.

Figured the above was there long enough to just transcribe what was actually in the picture since July 25, 2022.

Transcribed from the photograph. (Typed 1/13/2023)

I'm reflective of my shoe at the moment. I've printed out my digital self...not unlike 2019 but for greater thought to be considered. Perhaps its from necessity. Perhaps it is from attacks. A document of deletion while understanding my voice and life experience has/had meaning.

I'm reflective at the moment of an image I shot. Long or short before bedroom talk for serialized conversation.

The image in my email, but I'll re-shoot if ever lost. A darkening of the sole there but also an attack on archetypes and myself.

I won't go into Starving Artist but I will guide an image in translation if I was to do so. A worker's shoe, an unpublished manuscript and a condom filled with something left in the freezer.

Unassuming, but raises questions. April 9, 2022. April Fool's already HAD.

I think about my work situation, and although not idealistic, I made the best of it with schooling and a degree as a carrot while I also stood my ground for myself and my peers younger than I. I'm OK with that. I'm more than OK with that. Whatever the circumstance to bring me back to the same location 20 years later, it was meant to be. The Walrus tells that to a certain degree.

In this image I think of archetypes as I've explored them my entire life and definitely in my works where others but put their shoe print on while I worked a basement. Struggles. Tests. Known results It's not trial and error anymore, it is money can afford error at expense. I recall as much as others can.

The shoe a separate story of mine to tell later. The '6 Minutes to Lunchtime' a warning of what was allowed and where the major shift is going to occur.

The condom...

Multiple reference there in arbitrarily licensing things for the hell of it without thinking properly. Maybe Disney Bridal experience there...or not. Lack of forethought before going hindsight?

I remember 'Finding Prince Charming' and what it meant to people at the time. I remember the past that became the forefront and I remember the anger expressed rightfully so. Imagine a big break or trying to create something nice and having it destroy you or what you were doing. No Fairy tales in the real world there where others say, 'this is why we can't have nice things'. while others could say what about me while trashing others. Is it an issue for culture to find flaws instead of strengths. Maybe we forgot or never knew what it was like to find someone you want to be with regardless of sex or gender. Do you know what prior generations went through? Look at it as racial differences were a problem for people. Different races were illegal to mix with and apply that love of the same sex...it is the same thing where we all want to connect one way or another and it is never what we are afforded. I don't owe a woman. I don't own a man. I don't owe anyone of my private life and never are you entitled to it.

Judgment comes when people are known. Never know the whole story and get to know someone and maybe you understand. We all search for that one way or another.

I filled this condom with vanilla pudding and froze it for a couple days before even entertaining the idea of photographing it. To me, I go back to that TV series, someone I met, what it represented and what came after.

I see what has happened to me from 2018—present where I can't just fault one side but well aware adult conversations need to happen in my relationship or you simply are not privy to it. Imagine the shame of trying to derail happiness for others. I've been there in experience. I am there.

I remember someone discounting Brokeback Mountain that led to private discussions afterwards that say one thing or another as the one discounting was the one who refused to watch the movie to begin with. The struggle is real in love and it was harder than it is now and I give my respects in that regard in all areas. It is difficult to find who we are. That is true, especially in any society that comes from the insecurity of puberty, to your first love...second...third...etc. until you find someone that matches you.

In regards to 'Finding Prince Charming'...never knock what people have to do for money or find value in. The intimacy violation is always going to be the worst. Break that or be the cause of the break then that is on you at the same time. We all grow.

In all the bears, wolves, cubs, etc. of the world, I am a platypus. A little bit of everything where my understanding of the world has been from hardship but at the same time respect of everyone. Have I been met the same?

Not in all counts.

Some people have been pudding themselves in places they do not belong in when it comes to me digitally. #8 warned you but never underestimate what one has to do to prove a point.

Love is love.

(Whatever you want  to label me as)

#whitecollarcrimes #vanillapuddingyourbusinessinminewithoutpermission

I am sure it was completely not read the cover of '6 Minutes to Lunchtime' in the original image. At least it gets added on in facsimilie behavor later. That was the manuscript of The Path of Starving Artist that someone nicely turned on back then. Thanks for that.

Monday 07.25.22
Posted by Philip Bonneau
 

READING MYSELF

I am trying to figure out how to spend my time these days while unemployed.

After I moved back to Savannah, GA in 2019, I began to write by hand what would become “Curated Jellyfish: A Paradise Lost”. That book is important to me and still, now in its 4th version, involves edits and handwritten notes to encorporate. Part of me questions the things that I would change knowing what I know now. It is part of the beauty of the book though and time is taken into account very clearly. Maybe I can work on that today.

After “Curated” went to both the printer and copyright office in 2019, the process of revision occurs in storytelling and what narratively makes sense to include/exclude. Nothing is ever really right at first pass in what is a 480+ page book. Still unnumbered as a battle continues in thought.

After that book was created and constantly revised I went about compiling the rest of my works and writings. I put together “Building Brave New Secrets” to showcase most work on the series from published/non-published forms. It starts with a work from 2004 that never hit the internet and in- between you get what is the introduction to “Curated” and the statement of a 9-Act story well into where “Disney Fairy Tale Weddings by Alfred Angelo” became #8 and the already conceived “Brave New Secrets” was in there as #9 which was started in 2013.

I like the idea of annotating “Building…” in a manner of clarity that fills gaps and answers logical questions. Pulled from the writing system of “Curated” where things need to clarified or expanded. I will not be using the green screen in processing of the verbal imagery there. Creative choices on established writing styles.

To retain all my works at the time, I went on to produce the companion to “Ugly Simple Truths” pulled from my blog but then also a separate artbook of the visual series. That book was never for sale publicly.

Then there is of course the artbook to “Heroes+Villains”, a hardbound beast that where limitations had and corrective design may come later but it was important to preserve, retain and claim my work that was impeded on and the breach of trust that occurred in 2018-2019.

After that I went on to rebuild my “Beautiful Layered Lies” artbook to include “Laying Lies to Rest” in what never really got fully explained but matters. A reset there of remembrance. Does that make a 10th Act or a reprocessing remake in a different perspective of memory and familiarity? That circular pattern of 9 becomes interesting to look at in hindsight and is very expansive.

Then there is “Chasing Jabberwocks”…again unfinished at 300+ pages and never hit the internet. I spoke of it yesterday to some degree where perhaps I would intertwine some of it with “Starving Artist” which sits around 100+ pages.

My self-editor version of “Brave New Secrets” was never finished, never hit any market and was still about 85-90% already in Curated Jellyfish. The expansion in there is further expanded in unscanned pages.

All that before even touching my handwritten journals into book form that does what some people think it does and total surprise to others including myself.

Whatever the reason for this as they are, the invasion of my property occurred and there is zero reason I should be drained back to zero or have any more conflict with prior arguments that could always be discussed civilly before. But that never occurred.

Where are we at now? What can I do? What can U do?

Either way…there was no reason for any of what happened to continue unless it truly is a never will happen again scenario in some respect while opening conversations of hello, how are you and going from there.

-Actively Seeking A Better Way Through Life

Sunday 07.17.22
Posted by Philip Bonneau
Comments: 1
 

Christmas in July.

I Wrote this 6/24/2022

Thoughts if before where an idea came and went.

A hold out to write together.

“The Christmas Conundrum”.

Over the years I’ve heard attacks on Christmas where I pass by them year by year.

The thought of birthdays and what they represent…perhaps back to the gym before I continue.

6/25/2022

I decided to wait to give writing a break since mind was elsewhere on it and on the focus of the day before in interest that sparks memories and understanding.

I’ve grown up very fondly of Christmas knowing other holidays of equal importance and represent faiths or circumstance or not celebrated at all.

I remember sitting under the tree as a child looking up at the inner workings of lights, nature and ornaments to have depth perception while interested to see what was on the inside while others take things for face value. Never thought of it at the time but perhaps I was the present of eve and the rest the next day.

I got in the knack of picking up a box and having a pretty good idea of what it was. Always was creative in that regard and hidden adventures await each season that became a game of guessing and giving.

I remember when my parents divorced a second-hand tree was given (fished out of the dumpster other years) and the Santa statue from my childhood where once entered into the home, I started with notes and signs put up annually on his outstretched hands that was meant to hold a tray.

“I’ll Work For Food.” first before going to an honest letter in my teens on “Wanting my mother back…and to bring family together.”

The statue is somewhere around here at my mother’s (or is it anymore as I’m not playing the what has been Grinch’ed game with people who’s hearts are not in the right place). Perhaps it is near my boxes of books and never-ending stories.

As the years passed from there, the tree became a luxury item that often I either could not afford or question the size of the tree had. Eventually I adopted the habit of buy a mini live one rooted and perhaps plant it later.

The smell of a natural tree does bring back child memories and on occasion once or twice I had a tree up. Have not had a tree since 2016 and I’ve had many a time of Christmas prior to divorce and after where few moments spark between what relationships I have had and the ones I’ve had alone.

Wrapping presents mostly or getting to know people where obviously from 2017 Christmas, a challenge with often nothing to give either from being unemployed, down to zero or struggling in areas that make me wonder why anyone wanted to possibly attack me on Christmas’s.

I suppose if my birthday was a planned attack, I get it.

Disregarded and countered wondering why someone would even be allowed to continue in reacting capacity of professional…or was it personal to someone?

Both really as one invaded into the work place that was never a misunderstanding. Perhaps the inclusion of those personal attacks is no one I want in charge yet understand that the lesson learned is the cruelty of others can be outmatched by the hearts of many.

The idea of vices of which judgement is one way or another. A gift of the Maji where I question to myself, “Why would the one who creates an amazing Christmas gift idea be attacked on the holidays & birthdays?”

The season means many things for different people. To me, it changes year-to-year where I work with what I can or as things were last year,” Just one gift.” Was it discounted?

Perhaps over time Christmas has evolved for me as it does in any holiday. I imagine each holiday is there for a reason and represents something to look forward to and plan in group moments of breaking the everyday life and plan accordingly for either self, intimacy, family or others.

A spirit of comradery & connection. I understand why people hate certain holidays.

Was my assets to be treated like boxed presents to be passed around to others? Hand-selected where as I write others could be righting wrongs in left field.

I pulled a CAH today and it was Claus-themed. I can’t find the statue, but I looked. I imagine out of home and out of park; someone has been trying to cover their bases. Perhaps attacked the holiday or forgot the Holiday Spirit.

I had a relationship once where the person despised Valentine’s Day. Thoughts of forced relationships where very Un-Valentine’s Day approach was to be the way most relationships should work. Others love Halloween. Others 4th of July. Me…St. Patrick’s Day (formerly known as Thanksgiving to myself) while I was in Paris this past year. Sometimes you have to make every holiday special and unique and apply it however you want it to be.

Another thing is to look at why we celebrate holidays. I suppose the Valentine’s Day discussion comes down to the difference between theatrical when it should be about intimacy and opening up daily. AHA moments x3.

The court of opinion goes back to green St. Patrick’s Day in Autumn Mists. Does this apply to “The Peter Principal” or has a frog got my throat. A Greenlight effect that leads to many places of discovery and wonder in foundations and beliefs.

I suppose as one has spent years in positions of either hating or loving, it boils down to what could have been saved and who watched.

I suppose I provide entertainment in acceptance, yet understand maybe some who were misdirected on what happened and what could be gotten away with.

A smacking occurred where noticed or not on unopened presents. Perhaps through window pains there is a relation to forced positions of wealth or where great value to perseverance where even in this regard makes zero sense for sustainability of product and life. Inspiration cut off while hopes, dreams intimacy & civility attacked.

Not smart business moves at all.

The death of a major asset and inspiration…for what? A write your own name approach while power plays to keep things going in exploitation with abuses passed down to others in learned behavior?

I think of the Christmas tree in many symbols. The air freshener of the living room or where breathing space allows. The idea of the Lil’ Debbie Christmas Tree Cakes wondering if a Giant Goliath-sized one could be made as a “Big Bertha” contribution to the Spirit of the holiday tradition that goes in line with my ideas of a Modern Norman Rockwell Thanksgiving (although this is in December). We all have something to be thankful for in gatherings and in lifetime Hallmark moments where, due to time and budget constraints, things sometimes have to be phoned in on sentiment knowing any holiday is personal and has various meanings to them individually. A variety of options there wondering “Who's son has Christmas as their favorite holiday?”

If Christmas was the celebration of the birth of Christ and Easter the celebration (or shock factor) of His return after 3 days of continuing to go about your life like nothing happened and business as usual…where is the moral without understanding the stations (still believe there are 15 of them) and people watching someone slowly die for 13 hours where some wanted to do something about it and others were paid off where elsewhere afterwards, “ Yeah…he totally did this for Us…We are cool…All is forgiven…No Biggie.”

The idea behind the Christmas Tree is a time-honored Tradition where something was cut down and slowly was dying in front of you where, if only we jazz this up a bit people will sit here and love the sacrifice for our own enjoyment.

The irony on cutting down something, watching them suffer and gather annually around it guised as the celebration of the birth of Jesus Christ is epic foreshadowing that really makes you understand that perhaps the birthday is really about society and sociology of accepted behavior patterns that may require a revisit in thought. Either way, with every tree purchased annually, you pay for that sin one way or another. Lessons everywhere on the price of power destroying thoughts and transformative notions of the discounted that gets taken over anyways by others to make profit by cutting out the middle men and women.

How does one counter that knowledge is by perhaps having those that cut down trees replant one to be thankful for the message given from a life taken. On the religious side, it opens up on why teachable lessons are flipped all over the place once you discover the inner workings.

When was the first Christmas Tree? I have questions because the Universe is very mysterious on when people didn't get the memo or lesson the first time. The irony of it where always a fan of The Holiday Spirit where once The Jewish Religion find out about this, they will light some candles for you prior. Those who don’t have trees and can’t afford it, I understand. Makeshift Maji means more where handmade and personal while dollar for dollar, some things are priceless. #returnofthemaji

My Christmas wish from long ago to my parents after they were divorced and another mother was introduced to my life. The best Christmas idea ever for a child to get to know their parents. Age 18-19. Or was it 21-22?

What I would like for Christmas is this…

A copy of your favorite book.

Your favorite music album

A version of your favorite movie.

A story of your life.

An art project where you thought of Me (where if others take this on, have it be someone else)

A Carroll somewhere in modern retelling where I successfully incorporated every bit of those gifts and returned it beautifully along with my own submissions in Curated Jellyfish: A Paradise Lost and then some.

-Philip A. Bonneau

6/25/2022 Original posting at 5am EST or was it 3AM or was it lunchtime? Modified slightly from my phone 7/15/2022 and then at public library at 12:40EST

The Santa image is owned by me. It is from my Photo Contributor profile Somamix1 on iStockphoto. It is my childhood Santa statue that brought so much hope and joy to my life and my family. Hyperlinked and free advertising for iStock. I don't suggest others not paying for images for usage.

Editor’s Note: The Christmas idea was probably between 21-22. The original work for food sign was around 12-14 and the sign after my parent’s divorce was any time between 16-17. 11:05am

Friday 07.15.22
Posted by Philip Bonneau
Comments: 1
 

An Open-Ended Question

With the utmost respect, I throw this out there to consider. If the former president of The United States of America did not take the $400,000 a year salary, is he considered not an actual government employee?

The question raised that if no salary was taken, then no employee handbook applies as he was not an official employee and did not fall under their jurisdiction. This of course raises the question on if he did not take a salary, who was he actually working for? Interest always to be had somewhere where priorities lay. Obviously profited from trips to his property and golf courses, but not taking the salary in any capacity leads to three question, Was he an official president of The United States?

I ask that before going into what is expected of the working class and paid time off. Twice I've lost accrued time off that should had been mine to take with me anywhere. Once from a company bankruptcy and the other from retaliatory termination. Time saved up and earned on either account taken away to still be considered insult to injury. Any one terminated should be allowed to take with them their earned vacation as it was parts of services rendered and earned.

The idea of 2-3 weeks paid vacation annually has changed over the years where now some companies offer massive different approaches to that structure. If a presidency was to follow the same structure, you would have a different output. I understand different positions have different responsibilities and I'm still team expanding on the 2 presidents/2vice-presidents idea. If only for mental health reasons alone and more sound judgement and decisions, it opens the door to proper use of vacation and what is healthy for any human to not be 24/7.

Questions raised that if President Donald Trump was not a paid employee of The United States of America, I cannot fault him for the massive vacation time spent during his 4 years. Would this have made him a part-time president? Did he not actually serve his full term before looking at the idea that if he waived his fees, did he waive his right to the presidency and acted in an illegal capacity for 4 years?

The question remains on did he or did he not take a salary. If he did, he lied to the American People. If he didn’t then it opens the door of legality and where his true interests were. I assume his family members took salaries for sure, but opens the door on legitimate legal basis.

The idea of a 2-president system opens up the conversation on appropriate time off based on capacity and earned. Day shift. Night shift. Meetings in-between. In the world where American struggle for vacations and to make ends me, it is fair to talk the appropriateness of vacation depending on position and how it is healthy to do so in a balanced manner.

This post has been edited for typos at 4:51 PM. Grammar obviously a mess.

Typed from my phone.

Wednesday 07.13.22
Posted by Philip Bonneau
Comments: 2
 

A Blurb of a Story of Many Things and Crossings

A CONTINUED EXPRESSION OF 7-9-2022

Brought some of my owned books downtown today while I purchased another at E. Shaver’s Bookstore near Madison Square.

Every so often on my former 15-30 minute breaks while employed, I’d go to the small local bookstore. Never know what you would find there.

Memories had as past things slipped through covers and carded with purchase that may practice restraint later. In a tight squeeze one must act fast and look before you leap confidently with placeholder material.

On my breaks, I would often go through the squares and around the block to have time to myself and catch fresh air. Often I wondered if my 30 minutes of clocked-out solitude was enough of a break to being constantly on my feet. Always thankful that eventually I was able to have a break like that starting around April 2021. It's always a privilege that could had been taken away just as much as 15 minutes based on business. Perhaps I’ve always connected with the bricks of Savannah even though slowly they have been replaced. Where did all the bricks go? Am I any different than them? …another brick on the street to be walked over without knowing it’s value? -Thoughts from the basement of The Scottish Rite.

I proceeded to follow the paths already taken where often I’d stop and notice things of interest. I decided to return to the intersection of West Charlton and Tattnell. A parting of ways where prior paths noticed of brick walkways from one side to the next. The former cobblestone in between long since removed, repaved and transformed.

I never understood the hesitation prior to not photograph what I noticed then, but today felt right in intention and artistic life value. Secret stories and expansions to be had in learned behavior and experience. Time holds true when barriers broken in expression and visual.

Is there a crossing coming where perhaps freed from where I was to where I could be? Data shows where things things break through and change yet here I am wondering what it means to test the waters.

Perception?

Intention?

A coping of things through storytelling and timing.

A landscape in other areas that paints an enviornment one way or another based on perspective.

A wrapped item of protection and awareness. #readday #redbrick #coveredgrounds

I would had post the images on Flickr, but my upload feature seems tp have glitched out over the last couple weeks. Love them though as my internet on my phone seems to not work outside the house basically making it a brick to wifi connections. One can never be too sure as prison walls of digital realms exist and have existed known for the last 4 years.

At least I found a way to listen to music at the gym with wired headphones and a phone from 2018-2020.

Hidden Wars Everywhere on the search for Peace and Answers. A few thinga over the years that one would “shit a brick” over.

Perhaps a sigh of relief?

Am I Hero? Villain? Anti-Hero? ….what is an Anti-Villain?!

Saturday 07.09.22
Posted by Philip Bonneau
 

A Fair Chance Part 2

As I challenged the idea of mugshots prior, it is still important to look at where else it was challenged and why it is in best interest to effectively stop the practice and try new areas.

The idea of public shaming prior to a conviction is unconstitutional and worth the internet does irrepriable damage. To be shamed prior to proven innocent, guilty or otherwise goes against due process where things have to be looked at from the front end and the back.

From the front, it is not public safety on my they are posted and was originally a deteriant to prevent crime while others profiteered through news outlets, newspaper and websites. This practice leads to racketeering of government assets without considering the rights of the individual that were always impeded on regardless of verdict under this practice.

There is the idea of three not posting of any mugshot on three internet in any form, but does llead to the creation of the Inmate Shot after conviction where that again would still have to be regulated and looked at.

If the inmate image does go into effect, the for profit aspect us to be considered where that profit could be used to whittle down time or bee looked at the ethics of sharing those images outside government controlled websites where it is so suggested to lock screengrabs and control time-limits based on new edivence that could be found, overturning of verdicts and pardon questions.

Room to talk on the inmate image, however any company that shares a single mugshot is possibly found liable as much as the original producers of the image.

In possible retaliation or hit piece articles, it is important to note that any use of a mugshot by a private company could lead to litigation and siezure of your assets.

Shouldn't affect the paarazzi as they aren't the producers of mugshots.

The mugshot question is near and dear to my heart as everyone is afforded a second chance and there is still room for expansion on thr inmate image. Questions of rights to privacy when those are already taken away from inmates is already in question.

Not sure the for-profit prison system, but continually grasping it in one way or another knowing that loopholes had in my life by others.

I'm wondering how do prior mugshots once not convicted very removed from the internet. Is that government funded as they were the original suppliers and how does that work with pardons?

Does the internet scrub work there in that arena or was that just specific to my intellectual property (blogs, tumblr etc) of Heroes+Villains and Other works?

I imagine I solved the area where people make money scrubbing the internet and placing that in either government control or possible restitution/obligation/penance to the very site owners of mugshots online.

Time for lunch.

Tuesday 07.05.22
Posted by Philip Bonneau
 

No Book on That…

I've thought tonight of Alfred Angelo. Never wrote a book on it as it involves over 80 years of history and again others more invested in the story surrounding each and every one. Or not.

I imagine in no digital aspect would that be tied to me a of today and zero desire to handwrite any of that as I have moved on to far other questions on life. What I’ve written about the company is pretty much on my website and minor things in already produced books. I am not handwriting an Alfred Angelo story, but have been working on my life and the spirit of weddings and marriage goes far beyond my time in 2017.

I brought up the book idea on the Alfred Angelo support page to drive out what needed to be discussed and resolved and let others go their route. If I had anything else to include about Alfred Angelo it would be the positive aspects that were not mentioned in those 3 places and the belief others had in me and myself. It was about what wasn't said leading up to the closing and what wasn't said afterwards that needed to come out. I'm sure it did.

Hopefully that post now what...a year ago… draws out the slander, the libel, the exploitation and bullying tactics that happened in the office while accusations made against me that were false and detrimental later in life.

Take for instance the VP of Marketing telling me that the Chief Creative Officer wanted me fired at the same time as the then Creative Director. Maybe ut was discussed and maybe considered. I imagine the professional building of relationships factor in. I imagine the same said when told that I was stealing work from the xontract-to-hire photographer when the truth is I was forced into it at less than going rate value.

It was an intimidation aspect I was used to and should had never been subjected to while also a raise stolen and confirmed by the returning creative director.

I think back on maybe I would had been ok with that happening. A severence package, a return back to ATL and still would of had claim to the Disney Fairy Tale Wedding by Alfred Angelo line for lack of compensation and exploitation (or could had been paid out for my rights).

Maybe I would of had a chance to find a job then with a proud marker on my resume that I still believe in weddings and marriage. A difference between how it ended in one location and where it ended up while I added my own beauty to the experience of glassbreakers and fairytales later in life in an awesome way.

The fact that I’ve been forced into Chpt. 13 since I’ve come back to Savannah in 2019, filed in 2020 it is understood that parties interested in coming after me would have to deal with multiple stay violations that never needed to occur. Things could had ended multiple times and where I am responsible for Alfred Angelo is remembering the marriage and dream aspect and carrying that on with me before and after Alfred Angelo: Delray Beach.

There are great stories in the Alfred Angelo history. History of unpaid workers who did what they could at the end for brides and families if you want the ending. The rest not my place to say as I respect any family trying to build a company from the heart. I understand where that breaks along the way. Impossible not to have mistakes and seek advice and perspective from other areas before acting reactionary. I side with investors and believers of a brand.

Imaginary thoughts of protection to consider where I'm independent of further persecution in that regard and others can understand we are all afforded a life to live and survive and talk about rights in digital or handwritten aspect.

I can tell you that when you have been invaded everywhere digitally and your voice and image removed, I'm well aware the signature.

I have nothing else to say about Alfred Angelo outside my entries in Curated and the stories from Manderella and mutual respect of Fathers of the Bride to Shoe String Budgets.

Maybe I should had formed an LLC when I was in ATL 2.0, or maybe catches things. Either way…my life not easily taken.

I imagine anyone in positions of power, wealth, responsibility and heritage ever get to new open or say what needs to be said without a team. We do have twitter though so I might have just debunked myself.

Either way, as a Zero of only a couple hundred dollars in my bank account. Never judge a zero as anything other than a circular pattern based on behavior. A starting point and an end.

Amazing what I did at Zero.

Amazing when others notice zero and starting points and ways to break a loop.

I imagine my candidness is going to change after this but at least I know the value of honesty and what I have on the line.

I respect everyone who wanted a voice or has one controlled.

Happy Independence Day tomorrow one way or another. I suppose I'll adapt some of this elsewhere tonight just in case.

Sunday 07.03.22
Posted by Philip Bonneau
 

I've become Aware.

I suppose today was a day to remember. A cornerstone discussion of things one way or another that I arrived to in thoughts.

I turned on my laptop today for the first time since June 2021. The last picture processed and worked was a Cinderella image. Every day I’d process an image here and there will going back to old work and new work at the same time. Shattered dreams remembered and still a test to move things from one place or another.

I found comfort trying to retrieve things from the computer I never wanted to open up again after that day that just sat there off and in the same location it always had been. On it Chasing and Jellyfish and other things that could had given me a life and be able to move on one way or another.

I suppose everything I’ve tried to do to have a life has been taken one way or another at this point where it was just event after event that never had to happen and could had been resolved, explained and countered if only one would talk to me then or now to see what I was protecting vs. what others were protecting.

A 4-million dollar mistake by others was a business decision that did not pay-off in the long run. Perhaps a talk with them at one point on why dresses should had been delivered and companies closed out properly. Perhaps then I could have had a life…perhaps others could of had a business…perhaps others could have their days and years uninterrupted by business decisions.

I think of the liens had on property after. From ships of dresses to the changing of locks in retail and corporate spaces. No one could claim any property from an employee after as employee’s themselves were entitled for compensation, proper notice and a chance to have a life properly when there are those that live paycheck to paycheck while others have the elusive nest egg and retirement funds to fall back on.

While looking through the laptop, I was reminded of my personal desktop before invaded as well and where that has carried over into today in electronic areas that perhaps could had been stopped years ago if only talked to.

I noticed my Walrus photoshoot RAW images in the photos section and instantly shut the laptop for a moment as I was happy to have the images back in some capacity perhaps. After I reopened, they were gone as I suspected they would be. The image of The Walrus was taken at The Gryphon in Savannah where I was an full-time employee there while a full-time student back from 2001-2005 as an Undergrad Graphic Design. I worked in Art’s Café as an assistant manager full-time while working on my Master’s in Photography 1 class a quarter in the same building on the either side. Both together compromise to be The Scottish Rite Temple.

The shoot was approved to happen by my Supervisor and represents many things to be that have been written before and not. A coming of age…a coming of identity…and a full circle of being in the same space 20 years later. The events happened happened and I find myself then trying to collect my stories and a life only to find there is always someone there now to just take it away and not let me have a life.

Today was proof once and for all that again, someone has been ready to pounce on me every opportunity they could and thought perhaps they would own me after or no one would know the wiser. I’m loosing the desire to even write anymore since I find that its hard to get past the Awareness of today and what can and cannot be fought and transformed. Nurtured behavior where I stood up. Stand up and perhaps time to just sit down.

It’s difficult to talk about the instant aspect things occur and there is no psychological problem with me outside of things in 2018-2019 could had been adult conversations of prevention to where we are today. I had those talks with myself in my book and picked up the pieces I could of life and what was important to me and important to possibly others. A chance to cope where never a discredit to reach, push forward and solidify arguments and open discussion boards for betterment of ourselves.

Have I struggled is completely a constructed aspect where even yesterday it was conversation of taking care of fleas in the house and my dogs and family knowing I am not employed, have no chance of being hired and obviously have been followed in areas that are well beyond my fighting ability to do solo.

How much could have had better society? Would I have had the same solutions or outcome had I not gone through this? A shoe string budget on so many things transformed from I first started taking photography seriously in 2008 to now. How much of my life could had been better where its not always about the richness of your heart, but the security of your contributions and connections.

Perhaps moving forward people will be kinder to one another. Perhaps hope exists and people learn honesty on damage done by others misled or who were just vindictive. To me vindictive is the same as retaliation and denotes that personally I’ve hurt someone where conversation could had been have. Perhaps one day people will know what was hidden and what was lost. Could had been found but in the end, the desire to push forward comes to an end.

I’m stubborn and I try but at least I clarified that no one can blame me while I’ve countered just about everything I could. Until then, the public library desktop is just going to have to be the solution for now since others took and took and others tried to save.

I tried to save.

Thursday 06.30.22
Posted by Philip Bonneau
 

A Tax Question

Robinhood was launched in April 18, 2013, which fundamentally changed the stock market and how people trade and invest. It was made available through the advancement of technology with the intention of allowing the everyday person to invest and own a piece of what they are interested in.

With it an industry shift that was quickly adopted were one evaluates day trading and long-term investment in the scheme of growing interest into the market. There are caps on things and as the industry has drastically changed since then with other major brokerages adopting the technology.

In the constant evolution of trades and ownerships, the thought of Robinhood intention has been amazing to see on one end or the other where questions raised on the tax side of things comes to the forefront. Perhaps some of this is readily available or just has not been talked about much as the shrewdness of adaptability leads into 70s, 80, 90s, 00s, 10s

As investment opportunities occur and dowries grown here and there, why not the tax code changes to adapt? With the new further accessibility to trade in and out with ease, one must be weary of old laws and standards that do not apply to current markets. The excitement to own stocks gives people a voice in a company big or small or at least shows you are invested in their future or product.

It seems so long ago that I wrote well after the fact that Alfred Angelo could had survived if they talked to their employees. Privately on this site, after employment I wrote in an unsearchable area of a what if scenario of if Alfred Angelo went public and did shares to compensate. “America’s Bridal Company” was written but the website attacked and I deleted to protect my site, the unfinished nature of what I was writing that evolved elsewhere to answer and never have to be asked the “Have You Ever Been Terminated?” question ever again. I imagine at this point, that was still what it was then vs. now….a could had happened moment where a whole different company name would have to be involved in that evolution of thought of marriage to company to celebrate marriage.

There is longevity in stocks and shares because you care about the company and go from there either without direct interaction or from being brought in internally.

My main question to ask though when it comes to Robinhood or any Stock App. What happens if the money put into the app never hits the bank account? Are you free to not put that on your taxes? Obviously there is outpouring from bank account to the brokerage, but if the money does not go back into you bank account is that not taxable?

I look at the question as I would a casino. You walk in with 100 dollars…play a few games…win say 1000 dollars. You now have 1100 dollars possibly but still in the room. You decide to keep going switching from slots to blackjack to pushing buttons. A roulette is played and you lost your 1100 dollars. Is that an 100 dollar loss on your tax return or a 1100 dollar loss on your tax return (because gambling losses are on tax forms)?

The same would be applied to winnings as well I imagine where until you cash out to a bank account, you are still going by House rules and variables there. I have refused to transfer any stocks to my bank account since I was forced to sell them back in 2019 to survive and try to have a home. With each stock comes a bit of protection that if the main question is answered and understood, it makes sense of talking variable play without having to show you the cards.

It is a question on wondering if there is a candlestick match game going on in that area where perhaps Prince John had opportunity there to steal from the poor in a long term gain while underestimating the evolution of people’s choice and pride in companies. It actually makes companies more sustainable to have people invested in them. With each publicly traded company, it becomes a board game on what is best and right for the company when no one person is a publicly traded corporation, but always a part of one with major weight bearing to be had based on the size of the company, the structure and how to proceed further in the evolution of corporate structure in the technical evolution of data and mining.

A simple question where all hands on deck to at any point, you can share your voice all you want and what you believe in. Each company publicly traded is a way to buyback things from the very places you believe in or the ones you don’t.

This is not advice. Just questions.

Wednesday 06.29.22
Posted by Philip Bonneau
 

A Fair Chance

Yeah... this is an almost 500 page book and it got really expansive in later handwritten books... so at least you know and perhaps the question on why prosecute me every chance you get has been solved...

The idea that people can live a life free of persecution has been attacked personally for years now. Below pages and proof of one of the many things held back not knowing how to talk about it or release it.

The story goes that others will shame and ridicule you while others make profit and prohibit you from success and a life.

Unexpected I would bounce back in 2019 and write a whole novel, yet here we are and the book has been important to me.

No page numbers here and it was a challenge to how we treat people who are looked down on and struggle the rest of their lives in some areas.

With the book known empeded on, its important from a moral standard to not hold it back as others profitted at my expense.

Copyright office knows and perhaps I could be afforded a life somehow while others right to take my life away and bleed me dry in unemployment.

It’s a gamechanger that I'm sure can be worked out spmeone but a clear stance against cruel and unusual punishment. Submitted and expanded on later in 2 different states based on the same argument and expansive to the inclusion of watermarks and logos on mugshots.

Perhaps compassion for all knowing we all can possibly have a second chance.

-Philip A. Bonneau, Author, Artist, A Human Being

Book, “Curated Jellyfish: A Paradise Lost” was submitted for copyright protection back in 2019.

This blog entry has been edited.

Tuesday 06.28.22
Posted by Philip Bonneau
 

A Boxed-In Fight

I published on my YouTube channel tonight.

A Connection To Anne Frank and What Has Happened During The COVID Exposure

A connection to Anne Frank and persecution as well as knowledge to the advent of youtube.

I've had my early works deleted by someone in that front which was an attack on artists then and now and I stand by my statements.

Defer to it there or Facebook if you like. Suffering on this regard comes from money and those retained and my life a forfeit for some. This has been years of approved behavior that has not been accounted for and spreads each time it is gotten away with.

As I explore the pinnacle of psychological, I know I'm done and unable to proceed forward because of others and they won't win in that regard and I still want to live with not knowing what to do. Is this government I turn to? Unknown brothers and sisters? Adopted? Abandoned?

The conversation is about who invests in what and who invests in dreams?

I think of the last 3 years, 4, 5, 6...An entire life from when internet was and when internet wasn't. An invasion in some areas as you never know who chimes in from time to time and who should not chime in at all.

So much documented evidence from 2018-now presently with so much more about Alfred Angelo where I'm not responsible but the spirit and the sanctity of marriage is alive and well against what happened there and what has been allowed to happen in approved behavior before and since.

I tested every way I could on things which could be explained. A digital trail where a reach out for hope or straight up saying what happened while others tell a story one way or another.

How many different excuses did SCAD give for my unemployment before realizing they are libel against me and problematic in their original form with the state of Georgia? Their words burned on my Linkedin while I support the SEA and the dream of SCAD. Never a bad attitude about fighting for worker’s rights since April 2021 while attending the Master program at the same time. School, Interrupted. Work impeded. I'll requested multiple times for reasonable accommodation of basic worker’s rights and transfers.

The "It Follows" effect from 2018 when at the door of non-commitment led to my life was OK to be lost for others benefit. Was that to make me be blamed for business decisions of Alfred Angelo or was that personal at a company of indirect physical harm and straight-up acknowledging phone tapping, real-life changing and adapting, impediment on a right to council, disregard of employer stepping in and continued stalking, harassment and unpunished behavior while I lost my dreams of family, children and security with no desire from the attacker to give me back my life or assets all these years later.

That echo'ed and osmosis'ed into bigger companies and bigger problems where more watchful eyes had and either continued aspect of lay-persons on surveillance and confidential info in 2019 to straight up America and the world fighting back against that knowing just because that happened does not mean that is the dream to have. That is a proven nightmare that cost me my will to live then and my complete desire to stay alive now knowing it is proven you have broken into my mother's home to save some, one or many companies while others process or completely understand that privacy is up for anyone in position to use wherever commercially while suffering occurs.

I'm not a paid actor.
I'm a human being.

I've very much understood what has happened and heard every aspect of try to litigate me one way or another.
I'LL DEFINITELY LITIGATE ME. By that a private conversation of hand gestures and taken seriously for eternity. (A book reference of my handwritten nature)

Easily worked in elsewhere... Imagine hearing anything of your work translated and stolen. Imagine your first encounter in anything...sex...driving a car...a break-up...a connection... that is on the line. They say no one listens to people anymore and it is quite the opposite.

I'm sincere that I have 600 to my name and I'm not selling my stocks of 4000 dollars value where I was forced into Chpt. 13 in 2020 after inaction of talking to me and proven inhumanity on my linkedin and on my personal website philipbonneau.com

The battles fought over the last several years leads a trail of what do you do with the spread of information based on biased opinion that is now commercially motivated by others and perhaps more commercially motivated to protect my family, my friends and myself in what is a major liability for this who thought they were untouchable.

What am I to do? I'm fighting but I have a week or two left of finances while my work already stolen and adapted in things that made millions and billions while I suffer and die.

I'll probably commit suicide when the money goes out in a week or two. Not because I'm mental ill. I'm more woke than ever. I don't want to die. I don’t know what to do. But for 4 proven years and definitely after the theft of "Curated Jellyfish" there was no desire to return my property, secure me or have me gain in my legacy that speaks for so many artists. I'm not letting companies grab-and-go with my property nor continue to possibly go after my family afterwards because of personal grudges or power. Just because you are used to taking whatever you want, does not mean you will eventually win and get it after-the-fact.

This I know.... but you aren't profiting off me if you choose to do nothing and I'm not Anne Frank but I connect in an arena that 100% is provable by anyone discounted and left to suffer knowing my fate will just be someone else's fate where even now you don't even give people a chance to thrive and I'm not going to be betrothed to any company that wanted to swoop in after-the-fact.

The conversation is about who invests in what and who invests in dreams?

I think of the last 3 years. 4, 5, 6...an entire life from when internet was and when internet wasn't. An invasion in some areas as you never know who chimes in from time-to-time and who should not chime in at all.

I think of the last 3 years. 4, 5, 6...an entire life from when internet was and when internet wasn't. An invasion in some areas as you never know who chimes in from time-to-time and who should not chime in at all.

Someone follows a pattern.

I’ve been vulnerable since 2018. I'm Team Artist Rights, Human Rights and straight-up a member* of the 195 countries of this world to fight what happened at The Savannah College of Art and Design in exploitative behavior and a major change to any corporate culture with discussions of bridges elsewhere.

I've fought where I could and others would do the same.

Build vs. Break but 57 years is hard to challenge.

I want to live and this happened and I'm worrying my story while I'm alive while others placeheld my death or suicide then or now to create deals around me, stories created and incorporated art/intellectual property into places without my permission, compensation or conversation.

You can't license the living without talking to the art/human/person. If that was occuring that license holder has never talked to me directly, does not control my books published/unpublished that were straight up stolen.

This is the only Blog post I’ve edited after publishing.
It has been modified on 1/10/2023 for the endless typos that come from multiple projects and solitude of craft and skill-set.

*An ant of billions if I was to be Frank.

Saturday 06.25.22
Posted by Philip Bonneau
 

A Conjection on "The Untouchable" status of Presidential Prosecution.

A Shouting Match to Some - Civility in Others.

A carryover from May 15th written (slightly modified)

“Your fucking political agenda is no match for The American Dream knowing it is global and yes, I will curse out the highest office in any area that this was allowed to happen.

Former presidents are not free from prosecution and in that liability you become a liability to The United States of America by default in protectionism and isolationist.

I’m a child of this Earth and respect to all countries joined together as I protect their child and heritage in exploitation that, in the United States, we do not divide. We do not bank on one’s suicide and we never ever try to divide this country as either president or would-be elect.

The collective conscious has enough evidence to support that you either better humanity or fall to the wayside in all privileged thoughts. The office of president always represents hope and capitalism is completely voided of that dream as private ventures shift to the public corporation that is America. Think of others and either time spent wasted on ego vs. doing the right thing.”

The argument that a president can not be prosecuted or sued is contrary to the belief of being “Untouchable”, “Infallible” and free to do whatever he/she wants without liability. As no man/woman is afforded that protection; so must the argument be challenged and countered.

If any president past, present, future cannot be prosecuted or sued based on their status (current or former), they too loose all rights to sue anybody in any scenario as they cannot be challenged in argument under that conjecture. They also cannot directly press charges on anyone as even judges can be found prosecutable, thus possibly over extending their executive privilege into the judicial branch at the time or none at all.

By having the bully pulpit removed from this argument, the conversation becomes about one’s interests and intentions. If a former/sitting president is not prosecutable, the damages they inflict on others becomes the liability of The United States of America where civil, state & federal complaints are pushed in a direction where “The Untouchable” is either anointed incapable of error & wrong doing or raises questions on could they ever have any capitalistic venture afterwards as it raises questions on unfair competition and business practices. The fallibility of corporations cannot be protected by someone unprosecutable and would have to be looked at extensively from judge of character and brand promise.

In prosecution arguments, one has to look at actions as either for self or country. As a president represents all parties, races, religions, orientations and genders in that capacity, other areas represent rule of law and the other change & function.

As party titles are held, they all represent thumbprints to the states & territories of the definition of “American”. If one were to create parties, one looks to Democratic Republican values where parties all have brand promises, employee handbooks & leadership roles before coming together or not to play Stratego® with one another (now expanded beyond the 2 party version) to capture The American Flag for everyone.

The responsibility of the President should be looked at corporately in the “Too Big to Fail” category where if approached systematically with no prosecution available; further adaptation is required in the check and balance arena to back up “The Untouchable Claim”. I’ve explored the idea of 2 Presidents/2 Vice-Presidents to alleviate liabilities while also promoting mental health of office holders that gives balanced rationale and peace of mind when executing executive orders (or lack there of). This is based around many points of discussion including “The Great Invisible Wall” and the events surrounding Jan. 6 2021.

One must look at the events of terminology & party names. As the standard parties are Republican and Democrat, other parties lay outside the system where a 3rd major party is suggested to break-up divisions knowing multiple Houses and Party Branches already exist.

The word “Trumpism” is defined on the internet already and broad with references where brand promises say one thing and rule of law says another. It is defined by action one way or another where according to wiki, “a set of mechanisms for acquiring and keeping control of power associated with Donald Trump…” (8) (9)

Now…that can be taken many ways where the focus should be on sets of modifications, addenda and referendums on acquiring and balancing out the focus from one political power back to the priorities of respect for the ideas of The United States and voided of dominance over one class, gender, race over another in the 331 million+ others that also are namesakes to America knowing we are all equal in respect to the 195(countries).

The term denotes one things where the 331 million is the living aspect and not the cumulative social collective of investment and learned behavior. Is a party or movement sustainable surrounded by one person or greater ideals of connection?

Imagine if Clintonite was used to combat Trumpism. Would the references last longer than generational connection? Perhaps the Bushwackers are for something else. Perhaps the argument is a complete Obamanation of brand and promises. As one sounds from the Trumpit, it is important to know that if there wasn’t brand approval to the actions of Trumpism, how does that work in realms where others are definitely prosecutable?

If positions held in corporate belief standards, the idea of acceptable losses is to be considered while looking into bankruptcies and collections. Self vs. Country gain where the collection bins are circumstantial based on knowledge and belief systems. Strongly held beliefs in areas where passion and conviction leads to intention. If intention to keep Trump in power, it is far more beneficial for him not to run for re-election than to seek another term as the choice of could vs. should becomes a private win on both sides while things grow back from talking about one’s power and privilege to the idea of what are our rights and whit is sacred to this country and world.

If he runs, he has 4 more years possibly if there is a win and then that is the end of his political career. If he runs and loses, he could always come back over and over again thus bringing in influence, intention and money. If he doesn’t run there is always the chance of him down the line thus solidifying his bases in the “Wait and See” category. At the same time a need to answer the prosecutable arguments where the bully pulpit and the division of country and rhetorical downgrades and slams get worked on as a country.

With names used in Media, legislative and in belief-system debate, one has to look at what that name represents and what is allowed prior and moving forward. “Refocus America” from division, ridicule and the “free to do whatever you want” mentality from those who have a supported system to lose nothing while everyone else sacrifices on decisions every day.

CNN reported on a Bannon Cast where he talks threats to politicians and Garland on Impeachment if Trump is indicted. The take away from this is the fear and threat aspect/tactic that is obviously sanctioned and never denounced as a brand promise to Trumpism. In the “Too Big To Fail” category it is obvious that threats, ridicule, scare tactics and “The Bully Trumpit” is used to continue operating in fear which pushes things back to history repetition. If unable to be prosecuted, then the rules can go one way or another where sanctioned behavioralism and influence lead to social division and the events of Jan. 6, 2021. If the rule of law is not enforced in areas allowed prior to where things are going, it will continue to degrade the value of The United States into private corporatization, where we lose our collective identity to those that can never be prosecuted, too big to fail and clearly capable of error in any direction.

Mr. Bannon,

As I recall you were terminated from your position under The Trump Administration.

It is known internally and externally how you operate and where you think your influence is.

How do you get to speak on behalf of the former president of The United States with fear tactics & false influence?

The events surrounding Jan. 6th and the behavioral subjectry puts you in possible liability for continuing to fan the flames of constant uprising and possible personal injury to others and country in repeated documented instances.

The president “may” not be prosecutable, but his circle and connections based on known behavior very much are.

While entitled to your opinion, we are all trying to stay ahead of the game on how one person’s belief system leads to the false notion of pardons for bad behavior at the expense of the sanity and civility of The American People.

As a man with a voice, if you want to say one thing or another about continual fear towards others, you are free to say whatever you want. It is inferred that you can’t be impeached but definitely can be prosecuted. It is also inferred that perhaps times in Administrations was a great beginner’s program for talking about how to strengthen American policy and stability outside the learned behavior of your surroundings. Fear leads down many paths…

I suppose Trump will tell you what you can and cannot say about him with a possible change of approach from one source to another. As it is assumed he is very brand protective; sanctioned rhetoric could lead to a perception of how he wants the country in constant fear and power plays one way or another. It has been scientifically proven that constant states of fear and tension can have some side effects such as lowering of one’s life expectancy, constant mood swings, insistence of verifiable persecution, loss of income, loss of faith, patterned morale loss, and emotive meme’ing.

It is very cognizant the behavior that the Trump brand has recognized and sanctioned. The unspoken sanctionary really adds up on what is and isn’t his brand.

Fear not though; there is hope.

In support for the American Standard of Civility and Culture, narrow points-of-views can be opened up to broader thoughts beyond any political season and what we leave behind in legacy and of support for future generations.

Burnt from the past behavior, it is important to think of the future brightly beyond the degradation of policy and scare tactics of sociology. Instinct born of constant fear and persecution bridges people together against a singular enemy more so than divide. The Great Invisible Wall of the past has to come down from isolation and elitism in order to understand that actions have consequences and everyone is always held responsible for their heroics and villainy according to law.

From a civics standpoint, I am wondering if it is your belief a president cannot be indicted, was this from a certain point of view where the trickle down effect was a hope for pardons to playtime at the White House within the administration? A time-out may be in order to understand the severity of how battle cries and rhetoric has changed. Especially in a positive direction where the extended years of elite playtime has created severe corporate consequences to these colonies.

We are trying to move forward with a “Be Better” approach towards a brighter future for our country. Hopefully my above statements clarifies my conjection on how a president is able and could be prosecuted while also going into corporate ambitions from those of certain security clearances while in positions and after. The argument is not over the prosecution of one person, but of the many people and how that has affected the lives of those in this country from what happens afterwards. In preventative measures, the way media approaches civility and the rights of citizens with dignity and respect is vital to reestablish lives back from where corporate/business decisions done rashly have been and will be challenged to help rebuild and restructure the ideas and connectors of infrastructure and sustainability in “The American Melting Pot”.

-Philip Arthur Bonneau

5/30/2022 - A page from my Journal

The Be Best Campaign.

I’ve written about it before with the understanding that not all of us want to be in the spotlight. Not everyone of us are meant for the social responsibility. Not everyone wants to be a figure, but we are called one way or another to express and share.

Contributions had one way or another where others judge us online one way or another. Opinions had as should in any moment of influence. Relatability in conversation, action and interest where invasion takes over into areas sacred and not to be shared with everyone. There is an actor’s life, but we all wear masks and are transparent one way or another where comfortability is important.

I’ve spoken on the bee aspect before (being a SEA part of The Savannah College of Art and Design). I stand my ground on what is and isn’t a conjecture of opinion. Everyone has one and everyone has motives.

I translate the “Be Best” campaign which was originally about online bullying to be about the elite status of what you can get away with in ownership and privilege. This is not an unseen force and there is always balance to it in gray areas. I found it to be aspirational in meaning but denoted “losers” in the Best golden trophy arena. Jackets speak truth where names and seals on golf courses as if this is a par reference between you and I.

Online bullying. Onion Opinion.

Ownership rights based on what could be meta or just what you are used to.

Privilege good and bad everywhere. Where the idea of what is said and spoken is to help others in times of difficulty and coping. I defer to my Ugly Simple Truths blogs where those were taken away and my 9 stages of coping that I’ve modified and refined as of the last month or so.

To be Best to me refers to Ahmed Best and Jake Lloyd. Both from different areas. Best was ridiculed for Jar Jar online to the point of a suicide attemp. Expectations not what they seemed in something en-grained in culture where others think it is theirs (and in social-psychology it kind of is) and against an artist’s contribution.

Representation is important and we forget the human side of things. We are introduced to characters and archetypes. As proven that carries over where politically we all represent something in full page ads. The ridicule that Best received almost cost him his life knowing what is spread on the internet or digitally felt more more a brand than human life and understanding. There is a difference where pieces of souls are not what you get if known.

I speak of Jake in particular. A child with the weight of Vader. History foreshadowed. Weight of the world to get from A to D. The story always built and expanded on. A child’s journey is about mentorship and protection, clearly understanding what brands represent. Is it commercial or is it personal. Life lost as could could in the attempts to open up. To find a self is to accept who you are privately and publicly, but with masks in every areas.

“Bee Best” in this regard is always about social oral towards suicide prevention and protecting children learning the world and the mantle they have. #nolostboys

We all deserve a life and privacy.

Where we sit determines what we can and can not do.

Child protection there. Peer protection present.

As stories told, the lexicon of what we attach ourselves to is important.

Intention everywhere.

Vulnerability is something that most don’t share. A prohibition of opening up but also it involves areas of attack for others.

Why attack?

Why build off others?

Who are you to own creative expression which changes based on any perspective if you could look in other directions.

As we all learn things go in ways of ownership, the question remains on how we develop and what is enforced in behavior.

Just because you see it on a screen or computer does not mean you own those people or characters. A connection had in fiction where real life is different where heroes made vulnerable and villains are actually heroes. All have a life outside of what is given and interpretation always there.

Different with the the First families and what happens during and after service.

Privacy abound where “Be Best” is about stopping personal attacks towards individuals and using things for your advantage at the detriment of others. (especially in the capitalistic side of artists and their contribuitions)

The candidness of Best…an interview of self and talking of child. Strength in honesty to self, family and others to help knowing the ridicule faced. Lloyd did the same, a child with the shadow of Vader on his back.

The cultural aspect is no discount to the development of self where no one owns our contributions but everyone can judge.

Be Brave.

The lessons learned challenge as to know what we are doing and what we represent.

A careful lesson for those of opinion where we connect but our private lives are ours. Differentiation.

If the conversation is to be about humanity, I defer to “The Force” and in regard to what is “Be Best”. Get to know someone or the character they are. Otherwise understand you may be a character to someone else.

Social responsibility.

Private Intimacy.

A Hello.

A Good-Bye.

The weight of being front facing is more valuable than behind the scenes. Human life always important.

The connection is where representation connects.

Intimately yours as unemployed,

Where are you best? We all have our faults and weaknesses. Stranger when someone knows what they represent. To a child. As a Child. We all grow.

Reagan, Republicans and the public talking points of Star Wars references. - A possible real government campaign wrapped with Jedi and Siths on stopping the social injustice of online branding and executive orders of bullying and social media termination.

As the “Be Best” is a government funded program that is currently not being worked on, it’s social status is available in the public domain to work on. As “Be Best” is similar to “If you Ain’t First, you’re Last” I would either love to talk about brand changes with Will Ferrell or come up with a slogan that denotes “Being Better” where we all try to better ourselves and learn from past mistakes and others successes.

-Philip Arthur Bonneau

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Monday 06.13.22
Posted by Philip Bonneau
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Pan's Voice.

The image above in video form, was pulled from the series, "Laying Lies To Rest" that was a digital curated series created in 2018 once I returned to Atlanta from South Florida. This image itself was modified and published on June 21, 2018 from a shoot done back in July 8, 2011 that had imagery incorporated into "Beautiful Layered Lies" (My First Solo Art Show back in 2011). That series started with dream metaphor and the beginnings of “artspeak” with imagery not fully comprehending what it was being spoken or acted on on most sides but with understanding of big ideas since a child. Always an expansion as I look back over my childhood artwork in a binder of “Alice in Wonderland” concentration knowing it opens the door for A Divine Comedy and “Dear Aphrodite”. (I looked at my childhood work yesterday in an unexplored capacity with fondness of scores and humor in where those percentiles laid)

The series then (at first) was a beginning to psychology and a young life trying to reach for comprehension and an identity. Analyzed through the years and often revisited, “Laying Lies” was a turned back approach to the dreamworld and identity not so naïve as before in a different approach where memory of time transforms in meanings of remembrance and acknowledgement of growth (or lack there of) and experience.

I though of the word impression today as I went through many thoughts and approaches. It has a variant meaning of what it means to me is not necessarily what it means to you. I defer to what the internet provided knowing it is ever changing and the word impression has 2.830,000,000 impressions attached to it not fully aware of the impact of the word “impression”.

Impression definition on Earth Day

https://www.flickr.com/photos/pbonne20/52021378627

My impression not the same as the word impression. My name ATM knowing others are named Philip Bonneau is at 3.6 Million impressions. Could have been more with my tumblr impressions that were the basis of my introduction to marketing when I was first starting. Thousands there of people who noticed me that I may or may not have ever met. A history taken when someone deleted that. People talk legacy but when it comes to others constantly copyright attacking you, that was important and that was full of intent.

Names get out and I know the game. I’ve privately written about it and created artwork submitted knowing how people work in some areas. Never was a problem with me prior to 2018 and then suddenly there became a real life scenario that entered into areas of evasiveness that went well beyond trying to delete my entire existence from the internet not even really knowing me.

When starting any company you want to start with a promise and a brand message and go from there. What my message was is copywritten with How we treat each other. Always a placeholder but a clear understanding that I am team humanity, empathy and attempting to understand. When it comes to malicious attempts, I defer to others who have authority to handle that and simply wish for peace and a chance for happiness and a life.

History has it that from the Cradle of Civilization, that once name recognition enters the arena, things get very dicey on how to handle that. Ideas form around agriculture and stability of the home. That is always going to be the main message and again….home economics is essential globally (but I defer). A 3000 mile radius in the beginnings of civilization created a melting pot of ideals, cultures and ingenuity. Some for the better while others took advantage or said “Peace out…we are going elsewhere.”

I defer to 23 and me to say that we are all mixed in some aspect, but I defer back completely to name recognition. The price gets higher based on what you stand for, what you represent, what you talk about (preach?") and ultimately falls back on “Who are U?”

I was told “18 and on your own.” I’ve grown up in a structure of exploration and big world concepts where I’ve always done my own things from either being bullied or just occupying my time with sports, art and imagination. I’ve talked about putting myself through school with scholarships and hard work. I’ve touched slightly on the struggles of my mother. Family connections with my brother and Starving Artist paints the picture of a premature birth of someone who could not wait to publish that before I finished it and without my consent.

The Erasure has been real and the negative attacks noticed and documented since 2018. As I dreamt and built others have taken, tried to take, tried to save others, invaded physically and in other realms and I’ve protected at least a copywritten message of what happens to digital presence afterwards knowing that Golden Rulebook is 100% about humanity.

Those who have known me directly or indirectly have known that I’ve been a “self-starter” and do what I had to do to survive. As each image hit the internet it still goes back to dates, times and connections. 2 Facebook profiles removed where I own that privileged information and can never be taken over, we lose our identity as we grow from experience and mistakes had and lessons learned. As I started, even on Tumblr, it was amazing to acknowledge that working artists were influenced by my work in official capacities and the nods were had. (Cheers to Galactus and Magneto, silver spoon in hand) and amazing to be recognized by original members of Star Trek for my work after I stood nakedly with a sign for the internet asking to believe in me. I loved seeing things happen naturally through the years and even the family portraits from the island trailered a toilet series that became a discussion and amazing to unfold. It has been amazing who I have met naturally physically and not. We never know who we affect.

I’ve been deleted and I need to process that. I’ve been modified by others and I need to process that. I understand on other sites that being ok, but when it is your own personal realm it becomes a place of “I got your back” or “I got you.” Security not there most the time knowing I am being wiped out here and there from what I’ve done with trying to be an artist in photography sense since 2009, but also as a human since 1982.. I could look at things from a religious side on known history to know that it is psychological to wipe out others when control is either threatened or there is a grudge against one or the other. Never a grudge since 2018 with anything that I created, so I question 2019 in particular in what happened in that regard. Dreams built prior and questions beginning to ask and be formulated knowing I answered privately some of them and others vague cryptic answers testing the waters. (Especially since 2018),

When trying to get your name out there, it is best to watermark everything that you put out there. It is a sign of ownership, a sign to get things out there and a way to get things noticed. Never in the beginning or now do I ever put hi-res files on the internet. Most of my career, up until the last, every image of my work artistically has my signature on the right or left. The idea was always a better way of life and a chance to not struggle financially while making a difference. I know I made a difference and still love the fact that people who read my Ugly Simple Truth Blog that I never even knew in person said thank you for sharing that and it opened up a conversation for people to learn how to talk and get to know people. (That blog has now been deleted by someone and has been private for at least 2014-2015, with it also known attacked and talked about in 2018-2019)

I understand the idea of trying to delete me off the internet. When you leave an impression it has a lot to do with who you left an impression with. Some will like you; some will not. But you were noticed. I would be lying if I am not in pain knowing what cannot be replace and undone. I can’t have accounts reactivated and thousands(millions?) of impressions given back. I cannot go back through my social media wondering who the fuck tried to misspell something to make me look even more careless than what gets presented knowing I am actually pretty aware and consistent of perception and learned that back in 2010 in humility.

You don’t know the decisions made to get here…nor the choices. I don’t know yours either. All we can do is some regard is talk and in other areas know that other people are watching and making decisions one way or the other based on intention. At least my intention is always going to be pure in being wiped out by things stacked against me that I can’t fight alone and all I do is find common ground in every area I can knowing human value matters. History matters. Not everyone tells their story and not everyone given a chance to succeed with a nest egg.

My nest egg was broken. My families nest egg was broken knowing it is about my extended family and those I protect and against those who do harm or neglect. Surprisingly, “The Gay Super-Hero Guy” was never just The Gay Super-Hero Guy” and actually had more to say in life than sexuality and focused on actually the most influential aspects of at least English language while also branching into theology, psychology and archetypes that still warrants why I have been attacked personally since that point knowing maybe longer and just not active in the deletion of files and carelessness aspect. Individuality and acceptance known since my childhood story of “The Caterpillar” that I scanned and incorporated in my own private works at the SCAD library before I started classes and submitted for copyright, “Curated Jellyfish: A Paradise Lost.” That was impeded on and it never stopped. That was monumental what was written in that book and not unnoticed and others never paid for it or the rights.

My life has always been wrapped in my works, but was always about connection and bullying in the beginning knowing I was awkward or went through phases and criticism taught with age and experience. Always thought about how to stop things one way or another or at the very least say I am there and I understand if you like me or not. Middle school was amazing on the negative/positive re-enforcement aspect of it. I don’t rehash 2018-2019 knowing proactively others who do not know me formed their opinions in very liable company spaces and I was attacked in ways that goes against humanity and all I have left is the placeholder to say what you do and do not do in a workplace.

Things changed over the last 2 years. I’m aware that people crop. I am aware of screenshots and there is always a lesson to be taught there about ownership vs. recognition. One one side you want the share value and by doing so it gets your name out.

We all have to grow up eventually.

As parents become overworked and never the responsibility of teachers to raise children but only guide accordingly, it is important of what gets help back in discussion is disruptive to the psychological aspects of developments where one day we are going to have to learn the story of the birds and the bees one way or another and we also have to learn about resentment, anger or any emotion really and how to process that. Failure to learn that is going to lead to areas that are unhealthy, possibly unlawful and definitely not betterment for society knowing we all have to learn from somewhere.

I’ve been aware in my life what is charmin’.

I’ve been aware of how we treat each other in our own groups and how we treat others different.

I’ve known that since a child.

People will attack or talk about those who make it and then take no responsibility when they break it. I suppose that works for anyone who documents and who pushes things one way or the other. Who are the breakers of plausible deniability? As you think about yourself, are you thinking of others? If so, who are you discounting?

It has been a long road and was documented. I can speak of how amazing it was up until 2019 when apparently my Tumblr was deleted by someone or company. Blogger attacked since 2018 knowing the scientific aspect of that. Facebook, a foot down on Feb.15, 2022 when actively invaded for others interest knowing it is always going to be ironic that their interests came from my ideas. Even this week, my personal email known attacked leaving every single thing I submitted to copyright not in question, but should be validated and 100% litigated against knowing that was known since 2018-2019. But now in areas that is well beyond human dignity and what is fundamentally the right thing to do. Possible patents and a story of history that can never be challenged and never on social media. That is verifiable. That has happened. That is an @google on that question to help knowing I’ve publically @facebook and @twitter on known instances of modifications and additions to my personal story knowing this has been a painted story that needs to stop.

I am being erased. My history gone. My connections gone. Time honored traditions of influence erasing and putting things elsewhere. I’m to be the Starving Artist I talked about that was exploited along with so many other people. Faith on either side, but a climate change knowing that others have heard and others know even if it will possibly be for temporary as my history is never to be retrieved again in some regards and possibly illegal in others that I’ve never watched and might be considered revenge against me.

Does a tree that falls with no one around still make a sound?

Start Here with Curated Jellyfish

Our stories are collected one way or another. I can never escape “Indentured Servitude” knowing my history from the past and what we are afforded as a platform. Those stories echo but I remember most my struggles in trying one way or another to make a difference knowing I did.

Knowing the constant invasion, I call out those who are doing it and saying if you wanted to appropriate me (which is a very loose term and not exactly artistic), you are going to have to kill me publicly and stop trying to bank on finding to get me on something. I am afforded peace of life and a chance at anything. Anything at this point is opportunistic, has been for years that has already been put in place and acted on and all you can do is either pull a trigger to my face publicly or get creative with how to off me to have conversations after the fact. We all have to grow up eventually and I’ve accepted that since 2018 this has been known, reported and all you did was monopolize on it with the possibility of just going after my family afterwards to ward things off.

It escalated in my artistic and life experience and we definitely deal now with 3 Sphinx Riddles answers on top of the psychological aspect of A Divine Comedy with all the Modern Heroes+Villains involved that I’ve either tackled or yet to work with. What part of copyright and willful intention do you want to deal with in the grown up realm of wiping away existence of someone’s life thinking a company can do that to anyone or if that was political, what right do you have?

I handwrite knowing recorded keystrokes and try to contain my thoughts where I can. I’ve fought and rationalized where I can and did that with “Curated” only for that to be impeded on and proof to never write anything on a keyboard that I don’t realize to some extent is being read somewhere. “The pen is mightier than the keyboard.” as written prior. I’ve been forced in solitude and a fortress invaded knowing how dare you attack a private site knowing that is a violation of any site on the internet. How dare you record my keystrokes knowing that there may be money there. How dare you steal my dreams and repurpose them as your own. With those dreams came my nightmares and also adult conversations.

Why delete me from the internet? That is a question outside of the obvious attempt of ownership and jumping on wagons on this trail.

I tell myself, “An Average Man travelling the Tigris and Euphrates with a Heart.” My private messages, my photos, my email all go in that direction without revealing everything but yes…all 3 and yes…unexpected and regardless of any orientation it was attempted to be stolen along with everything else along with everything that I do that pushes humanity in the right direction while others made poor business choices and not knowing what to do.

I look at my life and I know my struggle and I know there is connection. https://www.philipbonneau.com/starvingartist explains allot knowing it was never finished and I never touched it on the literary side since someone else published it as a possible way to create liability towards me. It is a shame watching someone struggle knowing it could be “easily” fixed based on motive and intention one way or another.

I think of my life and I like the fact that I never want to be called “White”. I grew up understanding race early and when I shifted from public to private back to public school I saw it on either side. It has grown derogatory in some areas and it brings shame to me knowing neither side of my ancestral was present during USA slavery and actually we come from poverty overseas and trying to make it.

I think of the moral aspect of being a part of Alfred Angelo and I’ve written about the exploitation and abuse I went through in my search for dreams. I know most will not understand or care, but I was and will be never financially responsible for anything related to Alfred Angelo and my candor was most than what others gave to point you in the right directions towards others.

Perhaps I’ve been waving a flag my entire life on how we treat people and always was and have been a bridge to other races, nationalities, religions or economic statuses. I love conversations but have been attacked every way possible for years now knowing that it has been an advantage for some and disillusionment to others when that gets answered. I practice the Golden Rule and Rulebook.

As my life gets deleted and other validate it, just know if even if you see this and it gets forgotten…I existed and I tried to create a safe space while mine was constantly invaded, ripped apart and years of opportunity to try to push things against me.

Privilege of advantage is colorless…so are dreams.

My dreams have been willfully deleted and my contributions to society either protected, known or flat out stolen.

All I have left is knowing that it has always been an add on and pay it forward but when you deal in the topics I have, that stolen aspect is going to last longer than any of us.

I existed. U exist. We exist.

Lucky We Remember

https://www.flickr.com/photos/pbonne20/52022651620

Written a year ago. The things we hide in the “Only Me” categories and what we handwrite. Privacy is always intimacy with someone one way or another. What right do others have to just take because they can? What artist would ever just delete a presence if not for taking over ownership?

9 stages of thought here. I’ve accepted that this is reality and this was allowed by others.

On my own personal website that I pay for, this fort remains for a bit longer knowing I do not modify my blog posts and someone has been erasing me from the internet and a chance to work to Nothing.



Friday 04.22.22
Posted by Philip Bonneau
 

Middle Grounds are Iconic

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I look at this picture of found objects. 2 from yesterday 4/11/2022. The other was found abandoned and washed away at the location of the Atlanta recycling center that I once built my artwork on when discarded shortly after my trip to Paris. Stories told and taken elsewhere. What was captured while here or there? I can't help but try to find all of our connections. As we get collected in a jar by others, what are we left with? Who are we if not the identity of our life experiences and what we learn? Who are we as a company if we are empty of what we stand for and believe in? Built by others on either side, there is a difference when one believes in something and the other takes advantage from the knowledge of experience.


Things get rewritten, erased, labels placed on them and repackaged. Ideas are meant to spread and to grow. Tweaks throughout history prove this as society and personal experience expands into a branched areas forgetting our roots. The fruits of our labors are there to nourishment. The foundation of society and thought was built on agricultural structure. When tending to gardens it is important to note that things become sacred because they provide for the sustainability of life. What we eat and what it provides is very important and that can be taken physically or mentally in what we bring into our bodies. To take from that garden without permission is a careless task of thinking of your own nourishment vs. that of those that grew it to begin with. With zero regard to patience and time. The instant gratification that one sought comes at a cost that can never be replaced and the owner of the garden never forgets in their struggle to continue to try to eat.


Throughout history, stories get modified and some cultures become lost in the process while others gained and strengthened elsewhere. As we search for identity, it comes from a safe space of who we surround ourselves with and where we house ourselves personally or professionally. That is even if we are afforded a home at all where nature takes care in all circumstances. Blank pages to some where words were once written, stories that stand the test of time are the ones that can be transformed with cross-references to search for universal answers.


Our story that was caught was the exploitation of the very people that build the brands of power. Picked over here and there, picked on, discounted yet somehow a necessity to survive. When pulling from those trees, it is important to remember those that have not fully developed yet. In regards to our lives and my complete breaking of age discrimination law in theory, it is essential to note that it is not just about over 40 but also who knows what and who has what means. A sliding scale essential without going into means as a separate argument not yet had. There are great examples of positive or negative and never can everything be grouped into one.


Life is funny in how things work out and this takes strength to write knowing my personality is there as well. There is U and there is I. We work and are asked more for less until we forget what it is we were originally. Have we forgotten who we were meant to be while others watch knowing who we are? When we discover others like us and where they are kept, we find that our journey there involved time and riddles.
I saw in the sky once a battle between a lion and a unicorn. The lion transformed into the shape of a bull before singularly leaving the image of a unicorn. Transformation that led to agreements and connections elsewhere. Who am I supposed to be anymore knowing I am watched over in every area. Is it a fall in line or is it equal protection/attack? There is who I was, who I am and who I want to be that is variable based on environment and security. As our stories get collected elsewhere and funnelled out names get forgotten, lost and transformed.


I suppose yesterday was symbolic for I knowing that process of the unknowns work and their value. That have been made to pay for their creativity to be locked elsewhere. A march from the SEA keeps me guessing why my fascination for the beach since childhood factors in. At night the winds push the sands in minor patterns of rhythms and visuals.

I carried with myself my life experience knowing prior I visited a place of abandonment before on multiple fronts to now a place to help build homes. A garden visit with empathy for Medusa knowing my version elsewhere is not a personification and spelled differently. A garden trip where reflection was had in sight. Reflective of what was worn on my head I know the meanings behind it when faced with stolen dreams. A starter kit for adaptability learned over time.


I suppose there are Scarlet Letters and then there are Golden Letters. One a judgement to some and the others a sign of appreciation. We all struggle and it is always either internal or a spectator sport. Judgement on either side. I suppose the Advice I can give is that when things get buried deep, they eventually resurface. It is appropriate to know that stories translate when we are able to understand them. From a child stand-point, it is the introduction of anamorphic characters to help ease us into the world of understanding once we grow out of the influence of those who raise us. From there books build imagination and we begin to form our own ideas based on familiarity of what came before. As adults we either retain the sense of that wonder or it is conditioned to fade away. As few adults have nightmares, it is interesting to wonder why that is as dreams become more realistic to where we are in life.
I suppose I look at that crossroad and find the middle ground to be iconic. An Armory on one side with all the resources to combat. The other side a building of secrets placed before with a story of an artist who struggled while believing in dreams. As I've crossed from one and the other at different times of my life, I am reminded of my time at the Gryphon and a clock stood still. Reality vs. Mythology knowing this is an important message to give respect to either side.


I imagine this image will be reshot at some point but I didn't want to damage the book. I already saved it but the thought of honey covering it is there to preserve a message. As one side collects Everything and I have Nothing. I fight for Everything know we have forgotten words along the way. Lessons taught on supporting one another and not taking Advantage.


I suppose maybe that is one of the many facets to Evermore. Teachable lessons from Siblings day that even if we are completely different from one another, respect and acknowledgement knowing we face each other every day. How we act is either accordingly to our personality or we are forever locked in a standstill of stone. Acknowledgement had of one another knowing some of what lies within either.


So many A-games to be had. :)

Tuesday 04.12.22
Posted by Philip Bonneau
 

We end with nothing.

A Shit Show. A trademark approach to a safe space taken on.

I smiled today as I enter the bathroom of super-hero art of those in bathtubs and using the bathroom. The artist JP Huddleston from 2017. Captain America on the doorway with USA underwear, Spiderman above the towels in a bathtub with an ironman duckie. Thor showering on the side and Superman brushing his teeth,

I think of the creation of the bathroom selfie for me. Flickr says 2012 but it was actually around 2010-2011. It is so odd for me to imagine that that level of intimacy of me with an Ironman mask reading an encyclopedia would create a trend. Others were probably around that time, but none I saw until after when I was know for the toilet portrait. None definitely in the archetype realm of our heroes using the bathroom and wondering/knowing why knowing there was the family portrait of myself, An Alice variant and a made-up character of personality that later the props got repurposed for Captain Cold..

I enjoyed what came after. The Disney’s Evil Queen on the toilet and even Hulk at a urinal. I think I opened the door for a beast or may of just of been there at the right time and place. I tend to do that. It was always about the reveal for me. On one side it was always going to be “We all Shit” and that we should stop judging one another. On the other side it was about the intimacy I was letting in and what my “family” allowed.

It was common practice that I’d from time to time incorporate that intimacy with others. A bathroom is a scared place and more sacred than a bedroom. We are the most vulnerable there and it is only by gift that we are in the bedroom with others if at all. Imagine the bathroom and what goes on there. It never gets talked about but it is natural and we all do it. The unpleasant aspect of it is countered by the aspect that we sometimes have our best thoughts in privacy. Privacy is important in knowing that we can be alone, safe from judgment and allowed a place to do what we naturally do. I could apply that to sexuality but that is a completely different conversation that we don’t talk about when we are most vulnerable. Learned over time there are reasons for that.

I remember when I first got the home of 4 bedrooms to myself. Took months to find myself and my soul in the hallways of unpacked boxes for months. Not very much sleep and weight lost. I ran allot. That brought me peace and my connection to music. When others came in it was a welcome to “my” home where I invited people in or not. The ones who stayed with me were all from discontinued relationships so we all connected there for the most part. We were family and all trying to find our ground. Never a first choice but always a safe place.

The introduction of the bathroom selfie came around the same time of BLL and H+V1. It came from exploration and it came from being comfortable with people. To reveal a bathroom selfie in this regard is not to be taken advantage. It is often we take pictures of ourselves there. “We are feeling ourselves” or we look great while in the mirror. But what is out most vulnerable? What is it that we won’t reveal? I find it ironic as it is something that as you grow into a relationship that it becomes possibly common place and something casual. It is always about that first introduction that is important if allowed. I always after shoot used the bathroom selfie as the end knowing we got to know each other and it was either allowed or not. I imagine it to be the same of the bedroom but it is another level of intimacy and vulnerability. A photographic perfect toilet is important. It is an open door to conversation and letting someone in.

I learned of Zhang Huan in my Contemporary Art History course in my Masters studies in 2021. I tried to revisit it afterwards to find that that class was not available but the classes previously were. Intimidated on the zoom aspect of that, but perhaps protection or awareness as I was able to search the others. I took the challenge for that class when a professor told me to take it and to narrow my studies. Was absolutely necessary and I content on judgement of art from stock search on what is good and what has been done. I understand the stock artist and when artists are taken advantage of. We take the visual for granted as if it was always there and readily available. I noodled that thought with performance of memory knowing what a starving artist has to do and pushed myself creatively to something you wouldn’t find on stock and I’d control the image of always. I was honored to learn of the performance aspect of it and what it represented back in the 90s. Hours covered in honey to let bees collect before going to the water to watch them die in the water and cleansing of self.

A beautiful moment of humility and poverty where artists make profound statements of trying to change the world and better it. I’ve been stuck on exploitation knowing my experience of the last 3 in one realm, 5 in another, 16 in another, 21 in the base. “18 and on your own.” It has been a challenge and not because I haven’t been successful in what I do. The passion on the side has had its effect and has been heard and adapted. I know what I wrote in my letter of recommendation knowing the ones that didn’t get published and I was honored to have experienced from those who believed in me. I stand by if it is a “write it and I’ll sign it” mentality is there, I might as well write it myself which is what I did. That “art degree” discountment is never going to fly with me at this point. Not in the company I’ve had.

We all shit thought. That is the point.

I haven’t had a chance to touch a Heroes+Villains image since Corona and when I was in my Masters. Due to experience and their liability, I shall not return in the exploitation and manipulation route. Perhaps that is the way it was supposed to be. We pay for classes and self-discovery routes are not worth the 5-6000 dollars without proper professionalism of critique. No fault there as teachers invest completely in their students and it is allot of work. Always will be. Completely unethical if adapted for their own personal gain, but I am sure that is discussed prior to enrollment wondering where the bridge is on inspiration for an artist and a teacher knowing they are both. With my toilets, people say one thing in the front and in the back end something else comes out. The sweet sound of prospects go into a different direction where I imagine vulnerability is always still going to be the case for me. It is something natural for all of us.

They say a bee was not meant to fly. I’ve spent my career struggling, making ends meet and now left to the place of not comfortable in the means that I’ve been allowed knowing even this area is no longer a safe space in capture the flag. I’m co-dependent without a home for myself. I’m unemployed. I’m not lost and I know what has happened so that breaks may barriers in that front knowing I am going to be a PoS on the matter of not giving up. I’d produce and produce but I can’t help but think at this point I’m just being filmed or performanced to the fact of trying to get to my last dollar to sell at a cheap price. All I can really do at this point is say what I am not responsible for while I fight for basic human rights knowing those battles are valid, not common and just. I digress knowing I’ll wrangling in that argument.


I can’t help it as an artist to not produce and I find myself back in a safe space that even there doesn’t feel safe but afforded as it is not my own. I think of unemployment and I think of judgement. I think of nothing left on the walls knowing I have shot this image different on the driveway with more intention and meaning behind it. A warrior fallen and trying to get up. Words and expressions that cannot be read.

I surprise myself with what I hold back on all my artistic tools knowing the lid is shut for now. As I continue to try to process it becomes difficult wondering if I am going to be a fallen hero or villain to what has come before. Masked in experience and personas, I’ve fallen. Hard work cut through and wrapped around intentions of good., I’ve become limited knowing I’ve could have been more and others saw opportunity.

A closed lid of no vulnerability with everything said of just being a brick on the wall to a broken hammer of opportunity knowing others made it pretty much impossible in quick reads.

A bathroom selfie fromm 2010←2022. A closed lid that all I could do at school was try to fly until I learned other wings were clipped before they even knew the world and where to go.

Friday 04.08.22
Posted by Philip Bonneau
 

A reason to add "REASON FOR DETERMINATION OF UNEMPLOYMENT BENEFITS"

As squarespace was temporarily down the other night, I wrote in my mocked up thoughts to approach elsewhere later. Authorship is never a question unless you get into a dangerous game of content-providers and what happens to them. I've been reflective on this post recently. (Referring to my decision to add an end of employment reason to my professional account). https://www.philipbonneau.com/new-blog/2022/3/23/the-glassdoor-to-the-question-reasons-for-end-of-employment They were saved and when back up and running I'll return to discrimination and breaking that down line-by-line for educational purposes. (“Did that one.” - 4/2/2022)

I've thought about my recent blog post and how to continue on that for what is best for companies and for individuals. It can be read above on why I decided to add an "End of Employment" line to the CV and profile for each experience. It is something every recruiter and employer looks for and looks at. To sum up my rationale it is so it never has to get asked again repeatedly to answer or for it either to become a discussion point or an answer that is either awkward or exciting to answer in story-telling. Everything is always at first glance and dates are always important in those 5-6 seconds of viability.

We have a chance for employment and a right to work knowing food has to be put on the table one way or another. I’ve been long-term, fixed-term and then very short-termed in my career. The short term was never a fault of my own and never a reflection of my ability to do what has to be done to have a job and keep a roof over my head. I am a loyal customer when it comes to investing in my life and stability. An asset that most companies look for.

The further question rises from what happens after end of employment in some regards?
Inquiring minds always want to know if they even get a chance to look at someone’s CV. (I’m questioning the advent of the word CV knowing I thank you for my misunderstood appreciation of accent marks. Secret warriors stream-lining the job application status one step at a time. we can talk metrics later on where that came from.)

When it comes to end of employment, there is resigning to move on, there is termination and there is an end of employment/contract agreement. What happens when filing for unemployment and it is contested by the company?

It becomes a different arena when filing for unemployment. It is a completely different line item and it is separate from the reason of separation from employment. It is one that tells a story on either side of the coin that is fairly heard out in most cases to determine that it is a battle between putting food on a table or whatever you are afforded to enjoy a meal vs. a credit score that gets dinged for life. Money favors most in that regard but compassion overrules this and states where my argument begins.

If ever faced with having to file unemployment, there is a story there and there are official responses. By definition you have a 3rd party mediator that looks at the facts presented and makes an official response. Those statements are definitive based on knowledge of sworn aspects from either side to come to a conclusion. Always room to expand if necessary. Those stories are protected to most extents knowing what happens on those phone calls are the same as appearing before a judge because that is accurate to understand the sensitivity of fighting to put food on the table. Unwelcomed guests or surprise witnesses always resort back to parenting advice of learning how to teach sensitivity. When it comes to reason to reject or approve, that is determined by a 3rd party and it is based on fact on either side.

If it is an official response held in the state of application and response, Word-for-word should hold no legal recourse in Section III - Reasoning of unemployment determination. I am not sure how that applies state to state so I rest my case with the state of Georgia on my filing unemployment knowing I was at least afforded the grace in Florida that I didn’t have to ask for unemployment when Alfred Angelo abruptly shut down. That compassion was met by a 3rd party who understands the difficulty of that association. Unemployment decisions will always be a statement of fact and not biased when written verbatim. Facts always added after the fact to re-evaluate decisions, but there is a clear decision based on time of what one or the other did in that regard. It is important to read the back of the letters to know when pertaining to this that it specifically says "shall not be made the subject matter or basis for any action for slander or libel in any court of the State of _______" . The privileged status of letters is not open for interpretation on the matter, but implies it is the privilege discretion of the recipient on how to use it as long as they leave emotion out of it and speak the truth. I speak the truth when what is utmost “could be” protected knowing where my story lays. How many of our stories need to be protected?

When denied unemployment at first glance, it is an insult to injury in some cases and done so because unemployment dings affect the company on an insurance level that they try to protect. Companies know the value of paying out unemployment benefits and it leaves a mark on their CV that costs them in the long run. The other side of it is companies understand liability and understand that it is easier to hurt an individual knowing they are collectively more protected than the one filing. What you submit to the state of filing is final in official response and cannot be removed. Leaving emotion out of it is important when it comes to those matters while it is up to trained, skilled professional to ascertain an answer. There is the other side of those trying to eat and trying to pay the bills where the professionals know the difference in what they made their life passion doing and protecting. While not all cases are approved or rejected, (some are never heard) they often denote either a wrong was done or there was room for discussion prior to termination or from the actions leading to termination. 3rd parties needed to be brought in at one point or another.

In a "Glassdoor" setting of note of companies that refuse unemployment benefits there is always the question "Why?". That is individually based with a wide ruling on the matter. Slander/Liabel is not just associated with a company but also the individual. If recorded in your state of residence by a company in any regard to get out of paying unemployment benefits, it is clearly stated on the state and federal charges behind that. Companies are no match for a single person trying to eat and put food on the table before getting into the aspect of those with families. The strength to file for unemployment is already insult to injury knowing there is a story that takes strength. To hide personal grudges in official responses is never a solution and according to the State of Georgia I am legally 100% ok to state with no further context Section III- Reasoning on any case of what happens when you permanently affect someone’s life. This is a practice that could be adopted that companies either fight against unemployment or accept it and move on. It is a case-by-case basis that is never to be retaliatory and always a statement of fact. 3rd parties involved made sound judgements based on the facts provided. It is never an attack on a companies CV, but a documentation of history that has been frowned upon based on taught behavior of who pays the bills without understanding who kept the lights on.

As it is recorded both state and always attached to the one who applied for better or worse, it can be a completely non-biased way of saying what companies do + and - in that regard based on their own words and leaving them to their statements.

An open door to any company knowing I am a friend, I work internally to resolve situations and I have proven myself loyal to companies knowing that history doesn’t repeat itself from here on knowing that the internal structure is very important knowing what I had to do and what I sacrificed empowering everyone else to at least start with an “End of Employment” section knowing the “REASON FOR DETERMINATION OF UNEMPLOYMENT BENEFITS” speaks more about us than it does one way or the other. It was a 3rd party determination.

Saturday 04.02.22
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